lovers can be friends

somehow the cliché " Friends ca be Lovers, but Lover cannot be Friends",
can be "Friends ca be Lovers, but Lover can be Friends",
in my own opinion i guess...
for i believe that perhaps both parties have reasons
why they choose not to be friends or to be friends....


that thing is the one g0t hurts and the other one is the one who cause the hurt...
maybe the one who left feel awkward being friends with the one being left..
or the one being left still have his/her reasons not being friends with him/her..
its a reality in a ended relationship...


whats the real thing about this cliché?

and then ..........


i keep asking myself, when i know that i am the one who left alone..
i asked myself, am i ready to face me and offer my friendship....
since we started as good friends....actually the best of friends... inseparable...
but nothing has change, i still want to restore the friendship...
but since our communication has ended
h0w can we possibly be friends again...
question like is he willing to restore our friendship?
does our friendship means a lot to him?
always make me think?..
and we havent see each other and talk as friends.....

hmmm still i have questions...and it always fills my head every time i see my bestfriends Dhren.....
but it d0ent mean that i still love him the way i love him before...
things change....i've been hurt and cause a lot of pain to others
i have move on and i have let go...
n0w what i want is to prove that


'FRIENDS CAN BE LOVER AND LOVERS CAN BE FRIENDS TOO...

my self-esteem

nakakainis talaga ako...down na nman ang self-esteem ko..


dahil ba ndi ako maganda?dahil ba ndi ako matalino?dahil ndi ba ako seksi?



isang beses ko lang naramdaman na proud ung tao na un eh...kahit sa mga friends nya, p*tcha ndi ko lam ung naging proud ba sya...


d*mn tama bang maalala ko na naman un.....nakakainis kasi si ************,


buti pa sya sinasabi lagi na maganda ako, na matalino ako, na swerte ang magiging boyfriend ko, tsk tsk tsk...buti pa sila - naa-appreciate ung meron ako.... kainis naman....buti pa si gel pinapatawa ako....tnx po gel....

d*mn

wala lang...naalala ko lang, feeling ko hindi naging proud sa akin ang isang tao.....lalo na sa harap ng ibang tao......:( sad but true.....



::emo mode::

missing a friend......again

while watching PPB Season 2 episode last night, i burst into tears....my mom asked me why am i crying...sadly i remember (nope, i begun to miss) a friend....someone whom i consider as one of my blessings...i fell asleep crying -- crying like a baby...

i cried because when Bruce Quebral was about to leave the house to go to Slovenia for the Big Swap, Wendy, his close gurl HM, crying her heart out loud... telling him that "kapag magkaaway na at nagkakagulo na lahat, sila lang ang bati...."


then i thought of my Best Guy Friend.....


s0brang sakit kasi na mawawala ung taong kakampi mo sa lahat ng bagay.....that's why i burst into tears and cried....s0brang kong naalala ung pinagsamahan namin, kasi naman s0brang dati inseparable kami...all most every day kami magkasama at nagkikita....we talked anything under the sun...lahat ng frustrations, dreams, lahat talaga, as in lahat..even our biggest secrets...sobrang nakakamiss na may nasasabihan ka ng mga pr0blema, ng mga nangyari sa inyo the whole day, kwentuhan to the max, kulitan.....


Lolo Kulot namimiss na kita talaga...miss ko na ung Best Guy friend Ko... s0brang namimiss ko na h0w we bond t0gether...ung mga kwentuhan....lam ko po na masaya ka na, kahit wala na ako sa life mo..lam mo nman po na no one can replace my BEST GUY LOLO KULOT FRIEND DB? nag-iisa ka na po eh..kaw talaga ung BEST GUY FRIEND KO...



i'm not missing him as my boyfriend...i'm missing him as my bestfriend.....iba kasi Sya as friend..iba talaga........



::sadly, hindi pa ito ang tamang panahon na magkasama ulet sya bilang kaibigan...::
::only time can tell kung ano ang mangyayari, baka too late na...wala na ako::

♫♪someday...♫♪

♫♪i know you dont really see my worth.....


someday someones gonna love me
the way, i wanted you to need me....
sone day someones gonna take your place...
ooohh , someday, i forget about you...
you'll see i wont even miss you...
someday.........someday♫♪


that someday has arrived....i mean i have let my past be blown and now i'm beginning to feel something for someone i truly can't have....his heart MAYBE belong to someone else...MAYBE his past is still there.....i know that i can never have him, i'm not even sure if he loves me or he just like me as his friend....no one would know who he is...even him whom i believe appreciate my worth..someone i can call a FRIEND....who he is? i will keep that as a BIG SECRET.......
what's important is that I'M HAPPY KNOWING HIM....and HE MAKES ME FEEL IMPORTANT....

::secrets::

bLissful Time

the past months that passed are simply unpredictable....i never thought that it will happen to me....but then God has it better way of healing my heart and continue showering me with lots of reason to enj0y my life and keep on looking forward....pe0ple come and go...just like what happened to my ex-boyfriend...he came into my life and after our blissful time together, he went away...he maybe left me with my heart broken & shattered, he left me with a lesson to learned...i learned to appreciate myself, my family and other people as well.....


i wanted him to know that i still value our friendship and he is my best guy friend....and that i still consider him as one of the most important person in my life and one of the most wonderful people God had given me....he might forget me as his friend, but still he deserve a thank you from me...he knows the reason for that thank you...


Thank you for letting me in into your life and somehow be a part of your life.....Thank you...and i hope you now knew that i'm happy...am happy letting you go and i have moved on...i forget about my feelings for..and still you're my best GUY friend....no 0ne can change that......db Lolo...? :)