Happiness

It's almost Christmas and this is the time to share not just the blessings, not just gifts nor any material thing but L-O-V-E... Four letter word but such powerful, meaningful word... Love can make someone s0 happy or make someone feel so bad... I hate how it turns to be painful for others, how it can break dreams and hope... How much it can give you so much happiness and how it can give so much pain..? And love it how it turn to be such a life changing for others and how it can make you feel like in a cloud nine.. Seems everyone can be so engross and in-love with Love...

I heard stories worth fighting for and stories that just have to let it go... I feel sad when it has to end and feel so good when it is being started... At the end, no one knows when will it end or will it last...


I've known her for almost 5 years... I've heard a lot of her stories from family to school, from love life and her life... She is a friend, I can consider my truest friend... She was there and always there for me - in my down fall and my survival and happiness. I envy her for having someone that i don't have.. I want to comfort her when she's so down because of that.

For her:
Tol, i know somehow you'll be able to read this and i wish you so well that you'll be able to find happiness within yourself and not with anyone else... I'm always here for you.. Rest for a while... Find peace and be strong... Sooner or later, things will get better, have faith...

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I'm tired of asking why.. its too much for me and i know its not good if i keep asking a million why in my life... since i still have no boyfriend since October of 2007, i keep pushing myself away of having a fact of having one... my family asked who will be the next and when, but i refused to tell them the reason why there's no one i'm seeing... i want to but in my nature, wala naman ako nakikilala... i have to, wala naman dumarating... i keep telling my best friend how i wish i have someone to be with, but as of now, wala eh... i can't force it to come, i don't find it, baka masaktan o ma-disappoint lang if hndi ko makita... so i rather be HERE, waiting... if GOD wants to... if GOD permits it to come.. i want it too.. how? where? who? and when? i don't know..

this is maybe the reason why i feel so alone... and somehow empty....


i need a life... i need to change my environment and things i used to do... its time to spread my wings and grow...