Thursday, November 15, 2007

saying goodbye to old times

two days from now, we'll be moving on to our new house... i'm so excited about it... excited about my future room, new people to meet at the neighborhood.. and learn to cook na for us... hehehe.. but on the second though, i'll be missing what i got to used to... the noise of the kitchen, people i see when i pass by over the cashier and when i got home after my work... the laughs i shared with people i learned to call my FRIENDS... and most of all, i will definitely miss my room (actually my bed) , where i mature, where i learned to move on and where i learn to face my failure.. where my fondest memories happened.where my memories stores... where all my emotion burst -- where i cry, where i laugh, where i love, where i hate, where i mourn, where i became i real woman.. sadly, i have to bid my goodbye to the place i call my SANCTUARY.. the place i can call my WORLD... the place where i can be myself... the place i own.. the place where no one hates me... no one judge me... no one refuses me... but only accepts and comfort me...


probably the hardest thing on earth is saying GOODBYE... i will miss my routine.... harhar

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

new and old me..

i hate the way i look now... i have few pimples on my cheeks...
this is how i look now.... nakakainis......

per0 pretty pa rin aman db? wahehehe

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i'm thinking t00 much these days... things keep running into my head, with no definite thoughts... weird thoughts... im tired... feel sorry about things i've done that made me so damn sad... i wish i can change the whole thing... but as of now, i have to try to make things work -- in a good way... i've been doing things people seeing it as a big transformations for me... the way i handle things like love... the way i dress up... when i drink (occasionally).... i wanted to be the same person... the ABBHY they knew... but changes is inevitable... but if for them, i've change in a bad way, i don't know what to think.. i know myself... i will never change in a bad way... because from the start they knew, how i value MY SIMPLICITY...

Sunday, November 11, 2007

me, myself & i

people hate me...
people judge me...
people confuses me..
people just don't like me..


in spite of being myself..
in spite of being me:
they hate me, they judge me, they confuse me...

i'm lack of something i know i deserve...
God has reason why He haven't given it to me..
IT WILL TAKE TIME ...
what we want has its own time....
and when it comes
EMBRACE IT...
GRAB IT...
CHERISH IT...
TREASURE IT...
LOVE IT...


i'm just me... simple...been through different cruelty of life... been through hardships at my age encounter..learned so many things from every day struggle and from my mistakes... failure that made me a better person... i cry.. i laugh... i love.. i hate.... i mourn... i feel sad... i get angry... i fall.. i commit mistakes... i lie... i tell the truth... i play... i am being me...i'm a girl... i'm just a human wanted to be LOVED.... and wants to be HAPPY...






simple yet a million miles away from me...
seems like i have to die a thousand times.....

Thursday, November 08, 2007

the works

am not good at it but am trying... hehehe, frustrations ko na ata ang mag-edit ng picture through Photoshop (i've been using Adobe Photoshop Elements for more than two years, at s0brang eng-eng pa rin ako minsan...) remember my previous post ( months ago na) nakalimutan ko isave ung work ko, pero n0w, natutut0 na akong mag-save... hehehe....




with daniel...


panget ung gawa ko... hmp....












simplicity is BEAUTY... harhar.....








xxxxxxx wala lang xxxxxx

korean male star with american blood :

now, its dennis o'niel and daniel henney....such a cutie....
may i say gorgeous....:)

Monday, November 05, 2007

chasing happiness

i celebrated by birthday at home.. doing nothing ( i played with my cousins).... to top it all, it was boring... at 6:00 pm, umattend ng mass...dun ako nakita ni bong (wala sa plano k0 na makipagkita sa kanya...) then we joined his friends, eat at Bigg's tapos hinatid na nila ako pauwi...

tapos katext ko si jacq... she knew that am not that happy... i myself don't know why... i feel so INCOMPLETE... i know that something is missing... i feel so guilty that i have Bong but then in some ways i am incomplete...at lalo pa akong nagiging malungkot dahil he's trying to make me happy... lalo na nung birthday ko...

SORRY....