JOURNEY OF FRIENDSHIP

i wonder... i always have negative thoughts about myself, but i am changing it... i realize that i have IT... i am blessed with lot of people who love me and care for me - who appreciate me... my eyes almost teary when my best friend whom loves me so much told me about her plan... not just for her but for me... it was overwhelming that i couldn't speak a word... she makes me feel so love and appreciated... that's why i love her so much too... that every single tear i cried, she cried to0.. exactly opposite of my personality but then we both know that we are BEST FRIENDS... no one can replace her... i'm having a hard time thinking of words to describe the feeling.. GOD knows how grateful i am of having her in my life... she brings out the best in me... we've been through ups and downs.. as normal people, we had our misunderstanding and most of the time, we had a lot of fun... kapag kasi kasing ugali nya, magka-clash talaga sila, hehehe... i miss her so much... and from now on, i know i have to change, learned not to degrade myself, and that i have to believe in myself, believe in my capacity as a person... natatawa ako sa kanya, kasi naman, naiinip na daw sya na ma-IN LUV ulet ako... gusto na daw nya na maging happy ako... masaya naman ako eh, un nga lang, somehow, i feel like something is missing... simple lang ang hiling nya sa akin eh... ung maging happy ako... and tulad ng sabi ng isang kaibigan, i have to find it not with anyone else but WITHIN ME... i was just too negative about myself... and i know i have to learn to change it... because it doesn't doing anything positive... she thought me how to be strong and how to actually face it...


this song might be for couples, but this is exactly what my best friend erika has been for me and for any one else....

Because You Love Me
(Celine Dion)

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

from the sinner...

i hate being like this... but i have to let it out, if not i maybe crazy n0w.... thank GOD for the pen and paper.... now, it helps me, now that i have burst and put my thoughts into w0rds....

many words were spoken... w0rds maybe uttered as a lie or even a truth... i hardly fall in love... am not the type who's easy to fall in love... i need time to fall... and i don't force myself to fall... my few trusted friends used to tell me, you deserve to be happy.... that i deserve a second chance and likewise for those who wants to love me... but the hardest part of it is, when YOU, yourself tends to be frightened.. tends NOT to believe to such... it may seems easy for those, but for me - the problem is IT IS NEVER EASY FOR ME... i tend to think of negative things....


i will only lie if i say that, i never wanted to start again.... because, as my friends were telling me, 'IBA PA RIN KAPAG MERON'... someone wh0 will be there...


the only question left is - WHERE DO I START?

WOULD I BE ABLE TO TRUST AGAIN?

Blessed New Year!!!

Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008!!

My New Year Resolutions:

• Be more patient
• Be more careful
• Pursue my hobby
• drink a lot of water
• sleep more
• smile and laugh more often
• be happy about life
• try not to cry
• try not to be too sensitive
• love myself a little more
• and finally to LOVE AGAIN {harhar, a j0ke}

a had a rollercoaster ride this 2007.. i've been very happy but sometimes sad... i cried... i mourned.. i laugh... i smile.. and not that i have forgotten the pain, it is proven, GOD has a better plan for me... in the end of the day, i'll be happy, even not the same as before, but i will be MUCH happier...

i will spend my 2008 with much fun and HOPE...


cheers to 2008!!