:( life wont be the same

changes is inevitable... it makes me sad at times...
i wish i can go back to those days i am sure what i want...
i wish i can go back to those days i am sure what can make me smile...
i wish i can go back to those days i am sure what can make me feel COMPLETE...



current mood:

*** so sick... so sleepy***
***wanted to rest ***

Heart and Soul Under Renovation

I’m not good with words… Most of the time I’m lost of words… many times, I am misunderstood by words I used… maybe that’s why I hurt people without noticing it or even if I do, its too late.

My life seems boring… my closest friends are busy either with work or with their studies.. my best friend Erika is in Singapore, working and having the time of her life and I am very happy for her… Rose Anne is in Manila (same as Erika), working and enjoying life… now that she and her sister live on their own (which I want and love to do for a very long time)… Ghaye for sometime, visits me every time she has time.. Acel is busy seeking a job, I barely see her, and we never had a constant communication… but its okay… we know that we are friends.. Aside from them, Mel, Jacq and Gab are busy with their studies, now that Gab is on his last year… Jacq, as she told me, is busy with her academics… Mel, well he just too busy with her studies and her cyber world, hehehe… my Kuya or my shoulder-to-cry on D5 is busy with his work (its been a long time since we talked… I miss how he became my hanky and I will always thank him for those times…) after my failed relationship with my best guy friend (whom for 4 years been my constant kuya, clown, hanky, punching bag, companion, friend, adviser, confidant, so on and so fort… which reminds me that life after all is not a fairy tale), I never had a CONSTANT OTHER HALF… to share my thoughts.. pain and happiness, failure and success, tears and laughter.. after that I feel so alone.. empty.. broken… living dead.. scattered… THAT WAS BEFORE… it took me a while before I got back to reality.. it took me a while before I could sleep soundly.. and bring back my lost appetite… I remember that I almost kill myself working.. I love over time that time… I never ate breakfast and by that time I barely eat my dinner and even lunch… a tablespoon or two, will do, just to please my mom and brother… I lost almost ¼ of my original weight… I never thought of my failing health, for that time, what I want is to die… which until now, I REGRET… and the last thing is that I forgot that I still have a life.. life to live.. to enjoy.. to cherish and to prosper… how much happiness brought this for me is the same pain I got from it.. I never regret any decisions I made… perhaps, the only thing I did wrong, is the fact that I hurt not only myself, nor the person I used to love but my FAMILY.. the only thing I knew that particular days are pain that kill every single piece of me..

THAT WAS BEFORE…

I’ve learned so much from that experience… Vanquished by the power of it..

And because I am not good in words.. this is half of what I think my life is…I accidentally browsed this one from a writer (I don’t remember her name..) hehehe

“My heart is neither here nor there.. Not that I lack “significant others”. I’m just having one of those blah days when my heart just refuses to feel too much all over gain.. as I told my best friend ***, “girl bakit ganon? Parang pagod na akong makipagrelasyon (the thing with me is that I’m not tired of getting into relationship, I just had one, so bakit mapapagod)… Di ko na ‘ata kaya magseryoso!’ Her reply struck me, “di ka pagod, girl. Takot ka lang.. (bulls eye, I just felt so afraid..) sa dami ng pinagdaanan mo sa love.. di mo na alam kung sino ang sincere at sino ang hindi..

“So is my heart just tired of going through the whole gamut of emotions or has it become so afraid of what it wants the most? (my heart seems to be so afraid that it may be scattered again into tiny little pieces) They say love is the answer.. now it’s the questions…

“Considering all the emotional investment I’ve wisely (and unwisely) made many heartbeats and heartaches ago.. my heart feels like its on the brick of bankruptcy.. is there any heart out there that’s worthy enough to be a safety deposit box of all my leftover dreams and desires?”(though it will not be the same as before, for me...)

“I’ve been through hell and back in the name of love.. Now, my heart is in limbo.. how long before I get to Paradise?” (my heart is in limbo, same as her...)

My auntie, even my brother, told me to give Gab a chance, not only him but give myself a chance... my heart is in limbo... i don't want to force myself to commit when in the end, i might hurt him... the only problem with me, being single, is what other people would say.. either they say I'M YET OVER WITH MY EX.. THAT I STILL LOVE HIM.. but one way or another, i don't care... i know myself, and i know i'm over him.. he'll be forever loved by me, because, he's not just an ex-boyfriend, but a FRIEND... for others it may sound hypocrite, but that's the truth.. that's what i know and believe.. its been a year, we both have our lives (separately... we are not a constant textmate.. we never had hellos and hi every day, but we know that in both ends we have each other as friends...) i never had grudges in my heart... only acceptance and forgiveness.. i'm happy now that i can do things on own... i'm happy that i'm the old me... changes maybe inevitable but what good about it is that i mature .. if not trusting again maybe a childish act, perhaps i'm just afraid of some sort of another rollercoaster ride of emotions...how i love to LOVE... Bianca Gonzalez said: " the worst and best thing about love for me is how it is my greatest weakness but it's also where i draw my greats strength from.. "

love bring us immeasurable happiness but can also give us unbearable pain..

my heart is NEW..

my soul STILL UNDER RENOVATION.. where only GOD can renovate...

great day...

i never thought that it could be like this.. i am very much thankful na sa oras na yun, God is with me...i felt His presence, telling me "You can do it!, Its now or never." God made it possible... it was nerve wracking, i felt i was shaking... i was very nervous yet thank GOD i put those thoughts into words...


this 2008 has been very good, though maybe, it was on the 2nd month, i don't care... things for me are falling to its right places...

i am happy.. i am blessed..

gladness & overflowing happiness....

good thing na hindi na ako malungkot... good news that i've learned so much with this crazy life i have... and thank GOD for those... though as a normal human being, minsan naiisip ko pa rin sya... well, maybe because it WAS a very memorable and taught me a lot of things... things i need to learn to survive this cruel & full of fakes yet worthwhile journey of what we call LIFE...

being alone might be (for someone) sad and lonely, but for me, it wasn't that sad and lonely after all.. when you find every day without someone to share every bit of it, you'll learn to know more about yourself... as for me who choose to be alone for sometime now, learned to redeem myself from my sweetest yet drastic fall...

natututunan ko na kahit masaktan ako, hindi dapat tumigil ang buhay... lumaban sa lungkot at sakit... natututunan ko rin na maging positive the way i look about life... sabi nga sa Stuart Little, laging may SILVER LINING, hehehe, but it is very true...naging mas positive na ako sa lahat...i smile more often... laugh from the heart and can be seen on my eyes.....at higit sa lahat mas naging mas MATATAG...


isan na lang ang hindi ko matutunan.. ang mag-TIWALA ulet... darating din naman un...


SA TAMANG PANAHON...


^_*

questions and why?

i'm just blessed with a family who never fail to understand and listen... a family whom i can always count on.. a family whom i can run to when the whole world turn its back on me... i had this conversation with my closest auntie (my mom's sister).. sa s0brang dami naming napag-uusapan pati lovelife ko eh nauungat na rin... she knew that after my failed relationship, hindi pa ulet ako pumapasok sa relationship... it is because, i am not ready... not because, hindi pa ako nakakaget over... its been a year na... naka-moved on na ako... nakatulong kasi ung pag-accept ko sa bagay bagay... the only constant thing in this world is Change... at kapag nagawa mo na mag-FORGIVE, mag-ACCEPT, everything will follow... pinagkukwentohan nga nila ako, nung bumisita ung pinsan ko sa bahay... baka daw hindi pa ako makakarecover or baka nagkakausap pa kami kaya ganun... pero for me naman wala naman problem kung magkawentuhan pa kami, we're friends..


i'm not in a rush to enter to another relationship... kahit na sinasabi nila na baka isipin nya, kaya hindi pa ako napasok sa relasyon ay dahil may feelings pa...kahit wala na, ayoko pa rin mag-explain sa kahit na sino... i don't owe them that... it is my choice, and even if i am single, i am very much happy with my life... being single for the last 12 months had been a lot of fun, a lot of learning experience... it's not bad at all... but then, i am not hypocrite, there are times, that i asked myself, BAKIT NGA BA HINDI PA?... may mga willing naman, pero ako nga ang problema eh... sarili ko na kasi ang kalaban ko... hindi ko na mabalik ung tiwala sa iba... but i'm not closing my doors naman...

my friends were telling me, NAIINIP na kami... i wonder why? hindi ko naman sila binubuwisit araw-araw, maliban na lang kung may topak ako ..


so to my friends, wag kayo mainip, if its GOD's will, darating naman eh... we just have to let God takes over things, just like what i am doing...

trying to..

just trying to reconstruct my page... my page seems boring (just like my life)....

this is what my background should be...

hope to finish it this weekend...

JOURNEY OF FRIENDSHIP

i wonder... i always have negative thoughts about myself, but i am changing it... i realize that i have IT... i am blessed with lot of people who love me and care for me - who appreciate me... my eyes almost teary when my best friend whom loves me so much told me about her plan... not just for her but for me... it was overwhelming that i couldn't speak a word... she makes me feel so love and appreciated... that's why i love her so much too... that every single tear i cried, she cried to0.. exactly opposite of my personality but then we both know that we are BEST FRIENDS... no one can replace her... i'm having a hard time thinking of words to describe the feeling.. GOD knows how grateful i am of having her in my life... she brings out the best in me... we've been through ups and downs.. as normal people, we had our misunderstanding and most of the time, we had a lot of fun... kapag kasi kasing ugali nya, magka-clash talaga sila, hehehe... i miss her so much... and from now on, i know i have to change, learned not to degrade myself, and that i have to believe in myself, believe in my capacity as a person... natatawa ako sa kanya, kasi naman, naiinip na daw sya na ma-IN LUV ulet ako... gusto na daw nya na maging happy ako... masaya naman ako eh, un nga lang, somehow, i feel like something is missing... simple lang ang hiling nya sa akin eh... ung maging happy ako... and tulad ng sabi ng isang kaibigan, i have to find it not with anyone else but WITHIN ME... i was just too negative about myself... and i know i have to learn to change it... because it doesn't doing anything positive... she thought me how to be strong and how to actually face it...


this song might be for couples, but this is exactly what my best friend erika has been for me and for any one else....

Because You Love Me
(Celine Dion)

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

from the sinner...

i hate being like this... but i have to let it out, if not i maybe crazy n0w.... thank GOD for the pen and paper.... now, it helps me, now that i have burst and put my thoughts into w0rds....

many words were spoken... w0rds maybe uttered as a lie or even a truth... i hardly fall in love... am not the type who's easy to fall in love... i need time to fall... and i don't force myself to fall... my few trusted friends used to tell me, you deserve to be happy.... that i deserve a second chance and likewise for those who wants to love me... but the hardest part of it is, when YOU, yourself tends to be frightened.. tends NOT to believe to such... it may seems easy for those, but for me - the problem is IT IS NEVER EASY FOR ME... i tend to think of negative things....


i will only lie if i say that, i never wanted to start again.... because, as my friends were telling me, 'IBA PA RIN KAPAG MERON'... someone wh0 will be there...


the only question left is - WHERE DO I START?

WOULD I BE ABLE TO TRUST AGAIN?

Blessed New Year!!!

Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008!!

My New Year Resolutions:

• Be more patient
• Be more careful
• Pursue my hobby
• drink a lot of water
• sleep more
• smile and laugh more often
• be happy about life
• try not to cry
• try not to be too sensitive
• love myself a little more
• and finally to LOVE AGAIN {harhar, a j0ke}

a had a rollercoaster ride this 2007.. i've been very happy but sometimes sad... i cried... i mourned.. i laugh... i smile.. and not that i have forgotten the pain, it is proven, GOD has a better plan for me... in the end of the day, i'll be happy, even not the same as before, but i will be MUCH happier...

i will spend my 2008 with much fun and HOPE...


cheers to 2008!!

Merry Christmas

Christmas is over... just like the old time, i celebrated it with my family... though there are changes... harhar, my first christmas without someone to exchange my loveyous, harharhar, (and this time am getting used to it na..) my christmas routine has change, sad but it is my choice.. i chose to be alone this christmas...

*****

my christmas, supposed to be a HAPPY christmas, but then, unintentionally, s0me0ne spoiled it.... why is that? i don't know... someh0w, that person chose to be insensitive by that time... never thought it was Christmas... what the heck...? i was damn happy by that time... but then, what can i do... ? sin0 nga ba ako para maisip nya na s0meh0w, it will make me feel so down ?(na naman....) but i guess, things drastically change, and that can't be help...

****

i hope you're happy...

*****

i hope i can change the whole thing... but i know it w0nt happen... If this is GOD's Will, wh0 i am to question it? HE knows what makes me happy... and i know that in the end, HE will give my daily prayer... i just have to wait, patiently...

****

well merry christmas and have a blessed 2008...

may our Savior bless us with good health, love, happiness and success and of course

CONTENTMENT.......

Have a GREAT HOLIDAYS...

happiness

am having a hard time thinking what would be my subject will be for this post and where to start... a lot of things keep running into my head but i can not put into words... so i decided to put happiness as title... why? i don't know...hehehe

i just realized that people are not always nice.... even if you're nice to them...not all can appreciate things you do... as they say, you can't please everybody... while my friends and best friend love me as what i am, some says am maarte.. i am, per0 i know that my being maarte suits my personality... ndi ako maarte in a sense na nakakasakit ako... maybe there are times na naiinis ang iba sa akin, and i keep asking myself, eh baket sila ndi ko aman pinapakialaman.... naniniwala kasi ako na kung un sila, un na sila.. nobody can't change that, but themselves db? as what i see, hindi ko alam baket ganun pero eto aman ako, nagpapakatot0o.. gina-judge nila ako dahil lang sa kung ano ang nakikita nila... ndi pa nga nila ako nakikilala ng ayos... pero dahil nga i can't please everybody, wala na ako magawa... basta ang alam ko, my friends, my colleagues and best friend loves me.... and that won't compare to those who judge me....

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i had these few SMS conversation with a friend... and it always making me laugh... its the topic and the reply that making me laugh... i can't help it... that person really fascinate and amaze me for some reason... nauub0s na nga ang pera k0 kalo-load.. ndi lang naman kasi sya ang katext ko eh... natatawa na nga ako minsan... pero namimiss ko na rin ang sarili ko, wh0 used to laugh with s0meone... naiisip ko na nga na, its time to trust and love again... pero naku naman, its too far from now... gusto ko kasi s0meone na gusto k0 din.. ung enj0y kausap, ung may sense, ung napapatawa ako.. someone i can call a friend also... wala pa ulet ako nakikilalang ganun... though okay aman na mag-isa ako ngayon, siguro nga namimiss ko rin ung mga kung ano anong kaek-ekan sa isang relationship... its been long over due... almost a year ago had passed... its time to love yet i can't find one... (ndi aman ako naghahanap... i know darating na lang yun,when GOD allows it to come...) HE has a plan for me... and what ever it is WHO I AM TO QUESTION HIS WILL, right?

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am happy for those special people in my life who found their happiness.

> jacq with jayzon
> jayne with benjo
> lan with grejiel
> reyzon with kat
> rose with mhael
> best with her bf (can't mention his name, heheh)
> kuya mykel with tina
> sir d5 with mam joy
> jona with his hubby and their daughter
> ghaye with faisal
> acel with her long time boyfriend..
> and for those who found their happiness with their someone...


let love be alive and what ever happens, hold on....

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i made this one for myself... hahaha
wala lang... experiment, hahaha

GREEN DAY

it was out of my plan to attend the alumni homecoming...it was saturday so when i woke up that day, as usual, i clean the house [naglaba na ang nanay ko, hehehe, late na ako nakatulog eh, s0 late na rin ako nagising...>:) ] .. at late afternoon, jacq texted me, asking if pupunta kami ni ghaye [per0 walang ghaye na nagparamdam the day before, kaya lam ko na sa bahay lang ako that day, with my saturday routine... STAY AT HOME, WATCH T.V., TEXTING, SLEEPING and EATING, wahehe] ... wala naman talaga ako balak pumunta dun... i have reasons... una, dahil wala aman dun ang mga kabatch ko, busy silang lahat sa w0rk... kung mer0n man, malamang si Sir Alfritz at Reyzon lang ang andun [plus kabatch na technician, ndi ko aman kclose, not even kabatian sa school before].... pangalawa, tinatamad din ako lumabas ng bahay... nagtext lang si jacq na tatambay muna sya sa house namin habang inaantay si jayne..

i told her, na sabihin kay jayne na s0brang miss ko na sya... per0 dahil ndi nga ako mapilit ni jacq na umattend ng alumni, si jayne ang pumilit sa akin... even forced me to take a bath [ ndi pa ako nakakapaligo that time, dahil wala nga akong balak umalis ng bahay, kaya late na ako maliligo plus malamig pa...] kaya kahit wala sa plano ko ang pumunta dun napapunta ako ni jayne, telling me na ndi aman kami magtatagal dun.... eksakto aman, nakagreen si jayne that night, ndi ko napansin, pagbaba ko lang nakita...napansin nila na i was wearing my green [actually moss green ] blouse.... hehehe, pagdating namin dun, s0brang natuwa ako seeing kuya mykel and jayzar, sa s0brang katuwaan ko, naghug ko si kuya... [how i miss my friends!! :( ] tapos un nakita namin si kulot [ wearing GREEN], tapos ung bandang tumugtug, GREEN din ang suot... at ndi lang sila...madami pa rin ang nakagreen... so i declared that night at GREEN DAY.... ahihi.. tapos i was in owe when i saw AI-AI..s0brang invisible kaya sya.. minsan lang magtext..at take note, nakaGREEN din sya... i thought that night would be b0ring and all... but then, when my friends were around.... s0brang nakakatuwa... andun si kuya lauro, si rev, si albert, si resty... basta s0brang naging masaya at enjoy aman...



we had a great night... we unexpectedly enjoyed it and we had a lot of fun!!!!

thanks to jacq, jayne and ai...

happy with new life, new home..

finally, my mom decided to rent a house for us... its been long over due and we are hurt by what his boss were telling... we are very much thankful na sa loob ng 10 taon na pagpapatira sa amin sa kanyang restaurant ay naging okay naman ang buhay namin... free food..free lodging..free water and electricity... pero sabi nga ni mama sol, hindi habang buhay, mabubuhay kami sa libre... its time na, na tumayo sa aming mga paa.... saka para na rin mabawasan ang mga masasakit na salita... s0bra s0bra ang pasasalamat namin sa kanya.... malaki ang utang na loob namin sa kanya...


sabi nga, new house, new life, new journey... at maraming maraming maraming pagtitipid.....

almost a month na kami dun, and as of now, wala pa aman nagiging pr0blem, aside from mga kulang pa na gamit sa house... am just enjoying our new life and our new house.... cia0...


till next post.....

current mood: not so happy... my head still ache (3 days na...)

saying goodbye to old times

two days from now, we'll be moving on to our new house... i'm so excited about it... excited about my future room, new people to meet at the neighborhood.. and learn to cook na for us... hehehe.. but on the second though, i'll be missing what i got to used to... the noise of the kitchen, people i see when i pass by over the cashier and when i got home after my work... the laughs i shared with people i learned to call my FRIENDS... and most of all, i will definitely miss my room (actually my bed) , where i mature, where i learned to move on and where i learn to face my failure.. where my fondest memories happened.where my memories stores... where all my emotion burst -- where i cry, where i laugh, where i love, where i hate, where i mourn, where i became i real woman.. sadly, i have to bid my goodbye to the place i call my SANCTUARY.. the place i can call my WORLD... the place where i can be myself... the place i own.. the place where no one hates me... no one judge me... no one refuses me... but only accepts and comfort me...


probably the hardest thing on earth is saying GOODBYE... i will miss my routine.... harhar

new and old me..

i hate the way i look now... i have few pimples on my cheeks...

this is how i look now.... nakakainis......

per0 pretty pa rin aman db? wahehehe

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i'm thinking t00 much these days... things keep running into my head, with no definite thoughts... weird thoughts... im tired... feel sorry about things i've done that made me so damn sad... i wish i can change the whole thing... but as of now, i have to try to make things work -- in a good way... i've been doing things people seeing it as a big transformations for me... the way i handle things like love... the way i dress up... when i drink (occasionally).... i wanted to be the same person... the ABBHY they knew... but changes is inevitable... but if for them, i've change in a bad way, i don't know what to think.. i know myself... i will never change in a bad way... because from the start they knew, how i value MY SIMPLICITY...

me, myself & i

people hate me...

people judge me...
people confuses me..
people just don't like me..


in spite of being myself..
in spite of being me:
they hate me, they judge me, they confuse me...

i'm lack of something i know i deserve...
God has reason why He haven't given it to me..
IT WILL TAKE TIME ...
what we want has its own time....
and when it comes
EMBRACE IT...
GRAB IT...
CHERISH IT...
TREASURE IT...
LOVE IT...

i'm just me... simple...been through different cruelty of life... been through hardships at my age encounter..learned so many things from every day struggle and from my mistakes... failure that made me a better person... i cry.. i laugh... i love.. i hate.... i mourn... i feel sad... i get angry... i fall.. i commit mistakes... i lie... i tell the truth... i play... i am being me...i'm a girl... i'm just a human wanted to be LOVED.... and wants to be HAPPY...






simple yet a million miles away from me...
seems like i have to die a thousand times.....

the works

am not good at it but am trying... hehehe, frustrations ko na ata ang mag-edit ng picture through Photoshop (i've been using Adobe Photoshop Elements for more than two years, at s0brang eng-eng pa rin ako minsan...) remember my previous post ( months ago na) nakalimutan ko isave ung work ko, pero n0w, natutut0 na akong mag-save... hehehe....




with daniel...


panget ung gawa ko... hmp....












simplicity is BEAUTY... harhar.....

xxxxxxx wala lang xxxxxx

korean male star with american blood :

now, its dennis o'niel and daniel henney....such a cutie....
may i say gorgeous....:)

chasing happiness

i celebrated by birthday at home.. doing nothing ( i played with my cousins).... to top it all, it was boring... at 6:00 pm, umattend ng mass...dun ako nakita ni bong (wala sa plano k0 na makipagkita sa kanya...) then we joined his friends, eat at Bigg's tapos hinatid na nila ako pauwi...

tapos katext ko si jacq... she knew that am not that happy... i myself don't know why... i feel so INCOMPLETE... i know that something is missing... i feel so guilty that i have Bong but then in some ways i am incomplete...at lalo pa akong nagiging malungkot dahil he's trying to make me happy... lalo na nung birthday ko...

SORRY....

why not?

why not be together? why not be a couple?


bagay aman sila eh....pinipigilan ba... ? (",)

you can't have what you want... you can only have what you deserve... (but they deserve each other, ayt?) konting push siguro, pede na sila....... harhar

Good luck!!!

Rumors and all

just recently when i heard this news about me when i had this YM conversation with a friend... something that at first made me mad.. its not that i don't like the idea, and if its true, it is something i want for myself MUNA... and the fact that, that rumor comes from someone i don't know...and i will not waste my time knowing him/her either...but now, when i think of it, i'm laughing about it na.....as i quote a friend, "IT IS SPREADING LIKE A VIRUS", exaggerated ata ung w0rd na ginamit nya, kung pan0 nya nalaman un... i don't know... ganun lang siguro... once na tahimik ang buhay mo, ndi maaaring ndi maging magulo in some point...

just to clear things.. I am still single & available … enjoying my life, enjoying being courted… I’ve been going out with bong for a month now and are still on getting-to-know-you stage…. Am enjoying my life and going out with him... he's a nice guy..... and there's nothing wr0ng about that right... ?

i still don't know kung kanino galing ung balita about US (me & bong) ... AND AM NOT BLAMING, POINTING MY FINGERS or ACCUSING ANYONE FOR THAT RUMOR.... its not my attitude na mambintang...am not like that....

my apology if i reacted to much when i heard that news... nashock lang po ako... my apology!!!!

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THE CONVERSATION THAT ALMOST MADE ME CRY... i miss her so much....

eka_sweet2002: best!
eka_sweet2002: wazz up?
noviene_marie: dito si rose!!!!
noviene_marie: katabi ko
eka_sweet2002: talaga? cam ka?
noviene_marie: musta ka na jan?
noviene_marie: wala eh
eka_sweet2002: ok lang
eka_sweet2002: kayo?
eka_sweet2002: naiiyak ako..
noviene_marie: baket ka naiiyak?
noviene_marie: ano ka ba?
eka_sweet2002: namimiss ko kayo
noviene_marie: lipat lang kami pc...
eka_sweet2002: ano gawa nyo?
noviene_marie: ano kaba?
noviene_marie: wala lang
eka_sweet2002: ok yung may cam
noviene_marie: tinitingnan ang pic sa friendster
noviene_marie: gagamitin nung boss ko ung may cam
noviene_marie: ikaw may cam ka ba?
eka_sweet2002: oo
eka_sweet2002: mg cam din kayo
noviene_marie: ganda ni best
noviene_marie: miya magcam kami...
noviene_marie: asan ka?
eka_sweet2002: now na]
noviene_marie: ano gawa mo
eka_sweet2002: internet bcafe
eka_sweet2002: filipino food katabi
eka_sweet2002: hui
noviene_marie: hehehe
noviene_marie: masarap
noviene_marie: nawala cam mo
eka_sweet2002: masara naman
eka_sweet2002: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: masarap pala
eka_sweet2002: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: naview nyo ba ko"?
noviene_marie: ahahaha
noviene_marie: nawala nga eh
eka_sweet2002: magcam din kayo!!!!!!!!!!!!!
noviene_marie: sandali lang
eka_sweet2002: tinanggal ko na
eka_sweet2002: hehe
eka_sweet2002: mag out nako
eka_sweet2002: mahal dine
eka_sweet2002: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: love you all
eka_sweet2002: miss you guys
eka_sweet2002: i miss you talaga
noviene_marie: hayz
eka_sweet2002: ingat parati
noviene_marie: batet
eka_sweet2002: mwahhh
noviene_marie: magcam na kami
eka_sweet2002: kasi mahal
eka_sweet2002: ecam muna kayo
eka_sweet2002: tignan ko lang kayo
eka_sweet2002: dali
eka_sweet2002: dali
eka_sweet2002: dali
eka_sweet2002: hehehe
noviene_marie: wait
noviene_marie: yan na
noviene_marie: kita mo na kami
eka_sweet2002: oki
noviene_marie: miss you na?
eka_sweet2002: gaganda ng mga frends ko
eka_sweet2002: sobra
noviene_marie: asus
noviene_marie: bola
noviene_marie: miss you na!!
noviene_marie: grabe naluluha kami dito
eka_sweet2002: hehe ako nga din eh
eka_sweet2002: bat umuwi rose?
noviene_marie: bday ni mama nya
eka_sweet2002: ah.. happy bday
eka_sweet2002: sa kanya
eka_sweet2002: si mhael?
noviene_marie: okay lang daw
eka_sweet2002: di nay kasama?
noviene_marie: naku best mahal na babayaran mo
eka_sweet2002: di nya kasama>
noviene_marie: ndi
noviene_marie: pupuntahan namin miy
noviene_marie: after work
eka_sweet2002: ok lang yun.. nakita ko naman kayo
noviene_marie: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: wat tym out mo?
noviene_marie: musta ka man jan
noviene_marie: nakaadjust ka na ba sa weather
eka_sweet2002: same wether lang
eka_sweet2002: pati time
noviene_marie: ahh ganun?
eka_sweet2002: parang makati
eka_sweet2002: oo
eka_sweet2002: dami buildings
noviene_marie: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: puro condo
eka_sweet2002: condo ako nakatira
eka_sweet2002: ala houses
noviene_marie: w0w0
noviene_marie: w0w
noviene_marie: s0syal
noviene_marie: mahal b rent/
eka_sweet2002: hehe aircon pa
eka_sweet2002: hahahaha yabang
noviene_marie: start ka na ba work?
eka_sweet2002: mahal rent bru
eka_sweet2002: oo nung thurs pa
noviene_marie: s0 musta man ang trabaho/
eka_sweet2002: ok lang.. ala wenta.. hehehe
noviene_marie: batet
eka_sweet2002: maghanap ako mas maganda
noviene_marie: baket?
eka_sweet2002: hanap ko kayo..
noviene_marie: u0
noviene_marie: ung sama sama tay0
eka_sweet2002: yung mas malaki kita
eka_sweet2002: oo
noviene_marie: uu nga
noviene_marie: ano ba yan?
noviene_marie: naiiyak na ako
noviene_marie: :))
noviene_marie: pero best ingat ka jan ha
eka_sweet2002: hehehe wag ganan.. baka pati ako
eka_sweet2002: oo best.. kayo din
eka_sweet2002: nangingilid na luha ko
noviene_marie: nagpost ako bulletin sa friendster
noviene_marie: para sa yo
noviene_marie: kwento ako sa yo dun
eka_sweet2002: bago?
eka_sweet2002: sige
noviene_marie: u0
noviene_marie: best...
eka_sweet2002: okk
noviene_marie: mejo toxic ako best
noviene_marie: ayaw magtype ni rose
noviene_marie: suklay ng suklay
eka_sweet2002: hehe intay kasi prince charming
eka_sweet2002: papaganda
noviene_marie: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: i gotta go guys..
eka_sweet2002: love you
eka_sweet2002: miss you
noviene_marie: miss you na rin
noviene_marie: mwah
noviene_marie: you're in our prayers
noviene_marie: miss you
noviene_marie: mwah
eka_sweet2002: same here..
noviene_marie: love yah
eka_sweet2002: mwah

miss her so much!!!!! ung dalawang bessies ko asa malay0... she's in Singapore and Rose in Makati!! T_T ... my guy bestfriend is busy... T_T


miss you erika!!! s0 much!!