JOURNEY OF FRIENDSHIP

i wonder... i always have negative thoughts about myself, but i am changing it... i realize that i have IT... i am blessed with lot of people who love me and care for me - who appreciate me... my eyes almost teary when my best friend whom loves me so much told me about her plan... not just for her but for me... it was overwhelming that i couldn't speak a word... she makes me feel so love and appreciated... that's why i love her so much too... that every single tear i cried, she cried to0.. exactly opposite of my personality but then we both know that we are BEST FRIENDS... no one can replace her... i'm having a hard time thinking of words to describe the feeling.. GOD knows how grateful i am of having her in my life... she brings out the best in me... we've been through ups and downs.. as normal people, we had our misunderstanding and most of the time, we had a lot of fun... kapag kasi kasing ugali nya, magka-clash talaga sila, hehehe... i miss her so much... and from now on, i know i have to change, learned not to degrade myself, and that i have to believe in myself, believe in my capacity as a person... natatawa ako sa kanya, kasi naman, naiinip na daw sya na ma-IN LUV ulet ako... gusto na daw nya na maging happy ako... masaya naman ako eh, un nga lang, somehow, i feel like something is missing... simple lang ang hiling nya sa akin eh... ung maging happy ako... and tulad ng sabi ng isang kaibigan, i have to find it not with anyone else but WITHIN ME... i was just too negative about myself... and i know i have to learn to change it... because it doesn't doing anything positive... she thought me how to be strong and how to actually face it...


this song might be for couples, but this is exactly what my best friend erika has been for me and for any one else....

Because You Love Me
(Celine Dion)

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

from the sinner...

i hate being like this... but i have to let it out, if not i maybe crazy n0w.... thank GOD for the pen and paper.... now, it helps me, now that i have burst and put my thoughts into w0rds....

many words were spoken... w0rds maybe uttered as a lie or even a truth... i hardly fall in love... am not the type who's easy to fall in love... i need time to fall... and i don't force myself to fall... my few trusted friends used to tell me, you deserve to be happy.... that i deserve a second chance and likewise for those who wants to love me... but the hardest part of it is, when YOU, yourself tends to be frightened.. tends NOT to believe to such... it may seems easy for those, but for me - the problem is IT IS NEVER EASY FOR ME... i tend to think of negative things....


i will only lie if i say that, i never wanted to start again.... because, as my friends were telling me, 'IBA PA RIN KAPAG MERON'... someone wh0 will be there...


the only question left is - WHERE DO I START?

WOULD I BE ABLE TO TRUST AGAIN?

Blessed New Year!!!

Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008!!

My New Year Resolutions:

• Be more patient
• Be more careful
• Pursue my hobby
• drink a lot of water
• sleep more
• smile and laugh more often
• be happy about life
• try not to cry
• try not to be too sensitive
• love myself a little more
• and finally to LOVE AGAIN {harhar, a j0ke}

a had a rollercoaster ride this 2007.. i've been very happy but sometimes sad... i cried... i mourned.. i laugh... i smile.. and not that i have forgotten the pain, it is proven, GOD has a better plan for me... in the end of the day, i'll be happy, even not the same as before, but i will be MUCH happier...

i will spend my 2008 with much fun and HOPE...


cheers to 2008!!

Merry Christmas

Christmas is over... just like the old time, i celebrated it with my family... though there are changes... harhar, my first christmas without someone to exchange my loveyous, harharhar, (and this time am getting used to it na..) my christmas routine has change, sad but it is my choice.. i chose to be alone this christmas...

*****

my christmas, supposed to be a HAPPY christmas, but then, unintentionally, s0me0ne spoiled it.... why is that? i don't know... someh0w, that person chose to be insensitive by that time... never thought it was Christmas... what the heck...? i was damn happy by that time... but then, what can i do... ? sin0 nga ba ako para maisip nya na s0meh0w, it will make me feel so down ?(na naman....) but i guess, things drastically change, and that can't be help...

****

i hope you're happy...

*****

i hope i can change the whole thing... but i know it w0nt happen... If this is GOD's Will, wh0 i am to question it? HE knows what makes me happy... and i know that in the end, HE will give my daily prayer... i just have to wait, patiently...

****

well merry christmas and have a blessed 2008...

may our Savior bless us with good health, love, happiness and success and of course

CONTENTMENT.......

Have a GREAT HOLIDAYS...

happiness

am having a hard time thinking what would be my subject will be for this post and where to start... a lot of things keep running into my head but i can not put into words... so i decided to put happiness as title... why? i don't know...hehehe

i just realized that people are not always nice.... even if you're nice to them...not all can appreciate things you do... as they say, you can't please everybody... while my friends and best friend love me as what i am, some says am maarte.. i am, per0 i know that my being maarte suits my personality... ndi ako maarte in a sense na nakakasakit ako... maybe there are times na naiinis ang iba sa akin, and i keep asking myself, eh baket sila ndi ko aman pinapakialaman.... naniniwala kasi ako na kung un sila, un na sila.. nobody can't change that, but themselves db? as what i see, hindi ko alam baket ganun pero eto aman ako, nagpapakatot0o.. gina-judge nila ako dahil lang sa kung ano ang nakikita nila... ndi pa nga nila ako nakikilala ng ayos... pero dahil nga i can't please everybody, wala na ako magawa... basta ang alam ko, my friends, my colleagues and best friend loves me.... and that won't compare to those who judge me....

.......


i had these few SMS conversation with a friend... and it always making me laugh... its the topic and the reply that making me laugh... i can't help it... that person really fascinate and amaze me for some reason... nauub0s na nga ang pera k0 kalo-load.. ndi lang naman kasi sya ang katext ko eh... natatawa na nga ako minsan... pero namimiss ko na rin ang sarili ko, wh0 used to laugh with s0meone... naiisip ko na nga na, its time to trust and love again... pero naku naman, its too far from now... gusto ko kasi s0meone na gusto k0 din.. ung enj0y kausap, ung may sense, ung napapatawa ako.. someone i can call a friend also... wala pa ulet ako nakikilalang ganun... though okay aman na mag-isa ako ngayon, siguro nga namimiss ko rin ung mga kung ano anong kaek-ekan sa isang relationship... its been long over due... almost a year ago had passed... its time to love yet i can't find one... (ndi aman ako naghahanap... i know darating na lang yun,when GOD allows it to come...) HE has a plan for me... and what ever it is WHO I AM TO QUESTION HIS WILL, right?

......

am happy for those special people in my life who found their happiness.

> jacq with jayzon
> jayne with benjo
> lan with grejiel
> reyzon with kat
> rose with mhael
> best with her bf (can't mention his name, heheh)
> kuya mykel with tina
> sir d5 with mam joy
> jona with his hubby and their daughter
> ghaye with faisal
> acel with her long time boyfriend..
> and for those who found their happiness with their someone...


let love be alive and what ever happens, hold on....

....

i made this one for myself... hahaha
wala lang... experiment, hahaha

GREEN DAY

it was out of my plan to attend the alumni homecoming...it was saturday so when i woke up that day, as usual, i clean the house [naglaba na ang nanay ko, hehehe, late na ako nakatulog eh, s0 late na rin ako nagising...>:) ] .. at late afternoon, jacq texted me, asking if pupunta kami ni ghaye [per0 walang ghaye na nagparamdam the day before, kaya lam ko na sa bahay lang ako that day, with my saturday routine... STAY AT HOME, WATCH T.V., TEXTING, SLEEPING and EATING, wahehe] ... wala naman talaga ako balak pumunta dun... i have reasons... una, dahil wala aman dun ang mga kabatch ko, busy silang lahat sa w0rk... kung mer0n man, malamang si Sir Alfritz at Reyzon lang ang andun [plus kabatch na technician, ndi ko aman kclose, not even kabatian sa school before].... pangalawa, tinatamad din ako lumabas ng bahay... nagtext lang si jacq na tatambay muna sya sa house namin habang inaantay si jayne..

i told her, na sabihin kay jayne na s0brang miss ko na sya... per0 dahil ndi nga ako mapilit ni jacq na umattend ng alumni, si jayne ang pumilit sa akin... even forced me to take a bath [ ndi pa ako nakakapaligo that time, dahil wala nga akong balak umalis ng bahay, kaya late na ako maliligo plus malamig pa...] kaya kahit wala sa plano ko ang pumunta dun napapunta ako ni jayne, telling me na ndi aman kami magtatagal dun.... eksakto aman, nakagreen si jayne that night, ndi ko napansin, pagbaba ko lang nakita...napansin nila na i was wearing my green [actually moss green ] blouse.... hehehe, pagdating namin dun, s0brang natuwa ako seeing kuya mykel and jayzar, sa s0brang katuwaan ko, naghug ko si kuya... [how i miss my friends!! :( ] tapos un nakita namin si kulot [ wearing GREEN], tapos ung bandang tumugtug, GREEN din ang suot... at ndi lang sila...madami pa rin ang nakagreen... so i declared that night at GREEN DAY.... ahihi.. tapos i was in owe when i saw AI-AI..s0brang invisible kaya sya.. minsan lang magtext..at take note, nakaGREEN din sya... i thought that night would be b0ring and all... but then, when my friends were around.... s0brang nakakatuwa... andun si kuya lauro, si rev, si albert, si resty... basta s0brang naging masaya at enjoy aman...



we had a great night... we unexpectedly enjoyed it and we had a lot of fun!!!!

thanks to jacq, jayne and ai...

happy with new life, new home..

finally, my mom decided to rent a house for us... its been long over due and we are hurt by what his boss were telling... we are very much thankful na sa loob ng 10 taon na pagpapatira sa amin sa kanyang restaurant ay naging okay naman ang buhay namin... free food..free lodging..free water and electricity... pero sabi nga ni mama sol, hindi habang buhay, mabubuhay kami sa libre... its time na, na tumayo sa aming mga paa.... saka para na rin mabawasan ang mga masasakit na salita... s0bra s0bra ang pasasalamat namin sa kanya.... malaki ang utang na loob namin sa kanya...


sabi nga, new house, new life, new journey... at maraming maraming maraming pagtitipid.....

almost a month na kami dun, and as of now, wala pa aman nagiging pr0blem, aside from mga kulang pa na gamit sa house... am just enjoying our new life and our new house.... cia0...


till next post.....

current mood: not so happy... my head still ache (3 days na...)

saying goodbye to old times

two days from now, we'll be moving on to our new house... i'm so excited about it... excited about my future room, new people to meet at the neighborhood.. and learn to cook na for us... hehehe.. but on the second though, i'll be missing what i got to used to... the noise of the kitchen, people i see when i pass by over the cashier and when i got home after my work... the laughs i shared with people i learned to call my FRIENDS... and most of all, i will definitely miss my room (actually my bed) , where i mature, where i learned to move on and where i learn to face my failure.. where my fondest memories happened.where my memories stores... where all my emotion burst -- where i cry, where i laugh, where i love, where i hate, where i mourn, where i became i real woman.. sadly, i have to bid my goodbye to the place i call my SANCTUARY.. the place i can call my WORLD... the place where i can be myself... the place i own.. the place where no one hates me... no one judge me... no one refuses me... but only accepts and comfort me...


probably the hardest thing on earth is saying GOODBYE... i will miss my routine.... harhar

new and old me..

i hate the way i look now... i have few pimples on my cheeks...

this is how i look now.... nakakainis......

per0 pretty pa rin aman db? wahehehe

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i'm thinking t00 much these days... things keep running into my head, with no definite thoughts... weird thoughts... im tired... feel sorry about things i've done that made me so damn sad... i wish i can change the whole thing... but as of now, i have to try to make things work -- in a good way... i've been doing things people seeing it as a big transformations for me... the way i handle things like love... the way i dress up... when i drink (occasionally).... i wanted to be the same person... the ABBHY they knew... but changes is inevitable... but if for them, i've change in a bad way, i don't know what to think.. i know myself... i will never change in a bad way... because from the start they knew, how i value MY SIMPLICITY...

me, myself & i

people hate me...

people judge me...
people confuses me..
people just don't like me..


in spite of being myself..
in spite of being me:
they hate me, they judge me, they confuse me...

i'm lack of something i know i deserve...
God has reason why He haven't given it to me..
IT WILL TAKE TIME ...
what we want has its own time....
and when it comes
EMBRACE IT...
GRAB IT...
CHERISH IT...
TREASURE IT...
LOVE IT...

i'm just me... simple...been through different cruelty of life... been through hardships at my age encounter..learned so many things from every day struggle and from my mistakes... failure that made me a better person... i cry.. i laugh... i love.. i hate.... i mourn... i feel sad... i get angry... i fall.. i commit mistakes... i lie... i tell the truth... i play... i am being me...i'm a girl... i'm just a human wanted to be LOVED.... and wants to be HAPPY...






simple yet a million miles away from me...
seems like i have to die a thousand times.....

the works

am not good at it but am trying... hehehe, frustrations ko na ata ang mag-edit ng picture through Photoshop (i've been using Adobe Photoshop Elements for more than two years, at s0brang eng-eng pa rin ako minsan...) remember my previous post ( months ago na) nakalimutan ko isave ung work ko, pero n0w, natutut0 na akong mag-save... hehehe....




with daniel...


panget ung gawa ko... hmp....












simplicity is BEAUTY... harhar.....

xxxxxxx wala lang xxxxxx

korean male star with american blood :

now, its dennis o'niel and daniel henney....such a cutie....
may i say gorgeous....:)

chasing happiness

i celebrated by birthday at home.. doing nothing ( i played with my cousins).... to top it all, it was boring... at 6:00 pm, umattend ng mass...dun ako nakita ni bong (wala sa plano k0 na makipagkita sa kanya...) then we joined his friends, eat at Bigg's tapos hinatid na nila ako pauwi...

tapos katext ko si jacq... she knew that am not that happy... i myself don't know why... i feel so INCOMPLETE... i know that something is missing... i feel so guilty that i have Bong but then in some ways i am incomplete...at lalo pa akong nagiging malungkot dahil he's trying to make me happy... lalo na nung birthday ko...

SORRY....

why not?

why not be together? why not be a couple?


bagay aman sila eh....pinipigilan ba... ? (",)

you can't have what you want... you can only have what you deserve... (but they deserve each other, ayt?) konting push siguro, pede na sila....... harhar

Good luck!!!

Rumors and all

just recently when i heard this news about me when i had this YM conversation with a friend... something that at first made me mad.. its not that i don't like the idea, and if its true, it is something i want for myself MUNA... and the fact that, that rumor comes from someone i don't know...and i will not waste my time knowing him/her either...but now, when i think of it, i'm laughing about it na.....as i quote a friend, "IT IS SPREADING LIKE A VIRUS", exaggerated ata ung w0rd na ginamit nya, kung pan0 nya nalaman un... i don't know... ganun lang siguro... once na tahimik ang buhay mo, ndi maaaring ndi maging magulo in some point...

just to clear things.. I am still single & available … enjoying my life, enjoying being courted… I’ve been going out with bong for a month now and are still on getting-to-know-you stage…. Am enjoying my life and going out with him... he's a nice guy..... and there's nothing wr0ng about that right... ?

i still don't know kung kanino galing ung balita about US (me & bong) ... AND AM NOT BLAMING, POINTING MY FINGERS or ACCUSING ANYONE FOR THAT RUMOR.... its not my attitude na mambintang...am not like that....

my apology if i reacted to much when i heard that news... nashock lang po ako... my apology!!!!

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THE CONVERSATION THAT ALMOST MADE ME CRY... i miss her so much....

eka_sweet2002: best!
eka_sweet2002: wazz up?
noviene_marie: dito si rose!!!!
noviene_marie: katabi ko
eka_sweet2002: talaga? cam ka?
noviene_marie: musta ka na jan?
noviene_marie: wala eh
eka_sweet2002: ok lang
eka_sweet2002: kayo?
eka_sweet2002: naiiyak ako..
noviene_marie: baket ka naiiyak?
noviene_marie: ano ka ba?
eka_sweet2002: namimiss ko kayo
noviene_marie: lipat lang kami pc...
eka_sweet2002: ano gawa nyo?
noviene_marie: ano kaba?
noviene_marie: wala lang
eka_sweet2002: ok yung may cam
noviene_marie: tinitingnan ang pic sa friendster
noviene_marie: gagamitin nung boss ko ung may cam
noviene_marie: ikaw may cam ka ba?
eka_sweet2002: oo
eka_sweet2002: mg cam din kayo
noviene_marie: ganda ni best
noviene_marie: miya magcam kami...
noviene_marie: asan ka?
eka_sweet2002: now na]
noviene_marie: ano gawa mo
eka_sweet2002: internet bcafe
eka_sweet2002: filipino food katabi
eka_sweet2002: hui
noviene_marie: hehehe
noviene_marie: masarap
noviene_marie: nawala cam mo
eka_sweet2002: masara naman
eka_sweet2002: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: masarap pala
eka_sweet2002: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: naview nyo ba ko"?
noviene_marie: ahahaha
noviene_marie: nawala nga eh
eka_sweet2002: magcam din kayo!!!!!!!!!!!!!
noviene_marie: sandali lang
eka_sweet2002: tinanggal ko na
eka_sweet2002: hehe
eka_sweet2002: mag out nako
eka_sweet2002: mahal dine
eka_sweet2002: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: love you all
eka_sweet2002: miss you guys
eka_sweet2002: i miss you talaga
noviene_marie: hayz
eka_sweet2002: ingat parati
noviene_marie: batet
eka_sweet2002: mwahhh
noviene_marie: magcam na kami
eka_sweet2002: kasi mahal
eka_sweet2002: ecam muna kayo
eka_sweet2002: tignan ko lang kayo
eka_sweet2002: dali
eka_sweet2002: dali
eka_sweet2002: dali
eka_sweet2002: hehehe
noviene_marie: wait
noviene_marie: yan na
noviene_marie: kita mo na kami
eka_sweet2002: oki
noviene_marie: miss you na?
eka_sweet2002: gaganda ng mga frends ko
eka_sweet2002: sobra
noviene_marie: asus
noviene_marie: bola
noviene_marie: miss you na!!
noviene_marie: grabe naluluha kami dito
eka_sweet2002: hehe ako nga din eh
eka_sweet2002: bat umuwi rose?
noviene_marie: bday ni mama nya
eka_sweet2002: ah.. happy bday
eka_sweet2002: sa kanya
eka_sweet2002: si mhael?
noviene_marie: okay lang daw
eka_sweet2002: di nay kasama?
noviene_marie: naku best mahal na babayaran mo
eka_sweet2002: di nya kasama>
noviene_marie: ndi
noviene_marie: pupuntahan namin miy
noviene_marie: after work
eka_sweet2002: ok lang yun.. nakita ko naman kayo
noviene_marie: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: wat tym out mo?
noviene_marie: musta ka man jan
noviene_marie: nakaadjust ka na ba sa weather
eka_sweet2002: same wether lang
eka_sweet2002: pati time
noviene_marie: ahh ganun?
eka_sweet2002: parang makati
eka_sweet2002: oo
eka_sweet2002: dami buildings
noviene_marie: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: puro condo
eka_sweet2002: condo ako nakatira
eka_sweet2002: ala houses
noviene_marie: w0w0
noviene_marie: w0w
noviene_marie: s0syal
noviene_marie: mahal b rent/
eka_sweet2002: hehe aircon pa
eka_sweet2002: hahahaha yabang
noviene_marie: start ka na ba work?
eka_sweet2002: mahal rent bru
eka_sweet2002: oo nung thurs pa
noviene_marie: s0 musta man ang trabaho/
eka_sweet2002: ok lang.. ala wenta.. hehehe
noviene_marie: batet
eka_sweet2002: maghanap ako mas maganda
noviene_marie: baket?
eka_sweet2002: hanap ko kayo..
noviene_marie: u0
noviene_marie: ung sama sama tay0
eka_sweet2002: yung mas malaki kita
eka_sweet2002: oo
noviene_marie: uu nga
noviene_marie: ano ba yan?
noviene_marie: naiiyak na ako
noviene_marie: :))
noviene_marie: pero best ingat ka jan ha
eka_sweet2002: hehehe wag ganan.. baka pati ako
eka_sweet2002: oo best.. kayo din
eka_sweet2002: nangingilid na luha ko
noviene_marie: nagpost ako bulletin sa friendster
noviene_marie: para sa yo
noviene_marie: kwento ako sa yo dun
eka_sweet2002: bago?
eka_sweet2002: sige
noviene_marie: u0
noviene_marie: best...
eka_sweet2002: okk
noviene_marie: mejo toxic ako best
noviene_marie: ayaw magtype ni rose
noviene_marie: suklay ng suklay
eka_sweet2002: hehe intay kasi prince charming
eka_sweet2002: papaganda
noviene_marie: hehehe
eka_sweet2002: i gotta go guys..
eka_sweet2002: love you
eka_sweet2002: miss you
noviene_marie: miss you na rin
noviene_marie: mwah
noviene_marie: you're in our prayers
noviene_marie: miss you
noviene_marie: mwah
eka_sweet2002: same here..
noviene_marie: love yah
eka_sweet2002: mwah

miss her so much!!!!! ung dalawang bessies ko asa malay0... she's in Singapore and Rose in Makati!! T_T ... my guy bestfriend is busy... T_T


miss you erika!!! s0 much!!

disappointed

i never felt something like this after my break-up with my 20 months boyfriend... i'm happy seeing him and being with him..just a simple smile from him makes me have butterfly in my stomach... my heart beats so fast.. at sa kanya kaya k0 maging sweet ulet... he is a cute guy with sense... and he is tall.. am lost when am with him... and w0rst i barely knew the guy... i met him almost a month ago (Sept. 16 to be exact)... and my m0m told me to stay away from him... hindi k0 maintindihan per0 naiinis ako... i do like him... i want to know him better... but then it was my m0m wh0 told me that.... hindi ko aman kayang balewalain ang sinabi ng nanay k0 db? naiisip k0 nga.. pati ung suitor ko na friend ng friend ko parang ayaw din ng nanay ko..... naiinis ako na parang after my ex-boyfriend na s0brang close sa kanya, wala na ata sya magustuhan sa mga guys na nakakaclose sa akin... nakakainis talaga.... nakaset ba ang standard ng m0m k0 na it has to be the same with my past... ? am not happy about that... though it may sound good that my past leave something good to my family even not for me...

good luck n0t goodbye

3:00 pm, 10.10.07

my best friend is on her way to Singapore... sad that she leaves us (me and bru) but happy when she has that opportunity and finally what she wants fall into its right places...


I - we definitely miss her... h0w she smiles..laugh... make kwento about her life - love and life in general.. her advises..


miles and distance may separate us, but then what's the use of computer (friendster, YM, emails) and Mobile roaming, ayt?

miss y0u na best.. loveyah... Take our Care, Love and Prayers......Good luck!! God speed!! mwaAh.......

bye for now best

saying goodbye is never an easy thing.. lalo na kapag s0brang laki ng part ng ta0ng yun sa buhay natin... but then goodbye is not always farewell... ilang araw na lang at aalis na ang best friend ko na si erika..... puntang Singapore to w0rk... siyempre nakakalungkot per0 lahat naman ng bagay may rason eh... she choose to work there, kahit ako, mas gugustuhin ko rin umalis...oo iba pa rin kapag nasa Pilipinas.. pero minsan ang hirap hirap din naman mabuhay dito...


lam ko na nag-aalala yun sa kin eh.. per0 nagpromise ako na magiging okay din ang lahat sa akin... s0brang love ak0 nun eh... i can't help but be sad kapag naiisip k0 na aalis na sya per0 s0brang masaya rin naman kasi finally ung matagal na nyang gusto mangyari eh nangyari na... s0brang nakakatuwa un... am really happy for her...

i made a poem just for her... ndi aman s0brang ganda per0 from the heart naman..actually wala ako maisip na title, kaya nung binigay ko sa kanya, walang title.. sana magustuhan ny0..

get serious or just play around

i met this guy months ag0..he was just a friend... at first... we had several talks and had few chitchat.... i even thought that he likes my friend.... well, i n0w should believe the cliché, EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED..he just started texting the way he never used to... as he told me before, he's a not a textbuff.. he rarely text (even to his ex, when they're still together) my inbox is now filled with his messages (as i've said i never used of erasing messages)... i get confused sometimes of what he acts.. he exerted effort t0 see me... he even waited an hour to have lunch with me.... it seems true and sincere...he's asking questi0ns i'm not yet ready to answer.... i have happy when i'm with him... but i just can't help but think, he was just playing around... and i don't know..maybe i'm just afraid of being fooled or be played... that's why i always have doubts...n0 one can blame me for that... i've been through my drastic down fall, with n0 0ne but myself (yes I do have God, my Family and my bestfriends, kaya nga nakalampasan ko yun eh).. i struggle, i mourned, i fought, i took one step at a time to be myself AGAIN... its not easy... its not easy to recover and to move on, but i have learned it.. yes, i must admit, am still on the process of regaining my trust to any men wh0 wanted to be close.....perhaps, things wont be the same the way it was before....

Healing
by Denice Williams

Now that we have gotten through
One more fall
I can just admit I've got it all
Cause I do
Cause I've got you
We've crossed these battle lines too many times
It passes through the heart
But it never leaves a mark

Cause Your love just keeps on healing me
No matter how I bruise
If I just trust You
Your love just keeps on healing me
One more cure
One more chance that wasn't there before
In your arms
no pain can harm the way im feeling
Lord I know that Your love is healing

I've kicked around those lines in my head
But I never listened to the words that You said
See where it's lead
Well I know I have it now
Cause You showed me how
And all I had to do
Was just to keep my eyes on You

Cause Your love just keeps on healing me
No matter how I bruise
If I just trust You
Your love just keeps on healing me
One more cure
One more chance that wasnt there before
In your arms
no pain can harm the way im feeling
Lord I know that Your love is healing

(break)

Cause Your love just keeps on healing me
No matter how I bruise
If I just trust You
Your love just keeps on healing me
One more clue
One more chance that wasnt there before
In your arms
no pain can harm the way im feeling

Lord I know that Your love is healing

Global Pinoy Bazaar

Come and Join at Rockwell Tent on October 21, 2007....

See you there!!

just got lucky

almost two weeks ag0 since i told my friend d5 that i miss Bong... i don't know why i said such when i know it wasn't what i really feel..... (never pa ak0 nakamiss ng ndi naman s0brang close sa akin).... d5 told Bong about that, kaya nung magkita ulet kami asar lang yun... sa palagay ko nabigyan ng kulay yung sinabi ko...(bad thing for me) but now that Bong is making effort para makasama ako, i don't know what to think... he's nice and i really enj0y being with him... yep, he's making s0 much effort... hindi kasi sya mahilig magtext, per0 lately napupuno na ang inbox ko with his messages (tamad kasi ako magbura ng messages, and minsan i kept it intentionally).. tapos pumupunta pa talaga sya sa w0rk ko para makita DAW ako... etchus db? tulad kanina inaantay nya ako para sabay kami magtangahalian... tapos nung nagkaroon kami ng get together ng mga best girlfriends ko, sumunod talaga sya.... tapos lagi nya tinatanong kung ano ang sinasabi ng m0m k0 about us..natatawa ako, kasi lagi nya yun tinatanong...hindi naman nagtatanong ang mom ko...mas gusto niya na sinasabi na lang kesa nangtatanong.....


one time nagpunta sila sa patio (kuya j0bert, kuya major, mike, d5 and Bong).... asar to the max kasi nakita kami ni Mike sa San Miguel Foodshop nang Sunday evening... natatawa na lang ako kasi nga, detailed talaga yung kwento nya...... i was just laughing the whole time while si mike natatawa sa kwento nya...


marami na po ang nangyari this past few week, bottom line po ay masaya ako...