CHA-CHA

have u watched the CHA-CHA Urong o Sulong? well, i have watched the 2nd part, and i regret i haven't watched the 1st one...most of us, ndi alam ang ibig sabihin ng CHA-CHA or kung ano ang ipapalit sa Presidential System ...na gustong palitan ngayon..meron pa silang tinatawag na unicameral at people's initiative...ndi ko maitindihan noong una...kung bkit gusto ng mga nakaupong officials na baguhin ang constitution ng Pilipinas...ndi ko nga rin maintindihan kung ano ang unicameral or or Parliamentary System, until CHA-CHA Urong or Sulong on ABS-CBN aired last night..ndi ko man maintindihan lahat ng mga pinag-uusapan dun, ang naintindihan ko lang is, marami ang benefits or mas lalawak pa ng power ng mga nasa katungkulan..Meron pa silang sinasabi na BAKA NO-El (no election) sa 2007 at BAKA sa 2010 na.. ... marami pa akong hindi maintindihan.. eh pano na po ang lahat ng tao sa Pilipinas na ndi talaga alam ang lahat....alin nga ba ang mas nararapat...

eh sa ngayon madami pa rin ang mga taong walang trabaho...mabababa na rin ang antas ng edukasyon...napanood ko sa 24 Oras ang tungkol dun.. hay, pahirap na nang pahirap ang buhay.. dati nung napasok pa ako, wla akong iniisip kundi ang humingi ng allowance at kung anu-ano pa..ndi ko naiisip ung hirap ng mga magulang ko..per0 n0w na nagwo2rk na ako, ramdam ko na rin ang hirap ng buhay..hirap magbudget ng pera, ndi mo lang kung pano mo pagkakasyahin un sa mga gastusin..waaa wala na ata pag-asa....

ito po ay ung sa AKIn lang...ung kung ano ang nasa ISIP ko...

i'm afraid to be alone

i'm afraid to be alone...wake up in the middle of the night without someone...jaz lyk wat happen at 12 midnight, i woke up, i feel so empty, i'm afraid...i dont see my brother i grew up with my lola, i used to sleep with her and my cousins, thats why i'm afraid to be alone in one room... i never get to used with that.....i'm weak in that sense....i really want to cope with that but i'm having a hard tym dealing with that...maybe i do have an autophobia or a monophobia or maybe Cleithrophobia.... or Cenophobia i really dont want to be alone...that all...

remember

my "ate" pays me a visit jaz this afternoon with her 2 children.. brandem and nina...how i miss yhem... nina knows how to speak na, the last time i'm with them ndi pa siya maalam magsalita...good thing nasa mama na nina silang dalawa... they used to be with their tita..mau nagyari kasi na unexpected kasya ganon...and now i'm happy knowing that they survive...

i miss you brandem and nina... hope to see you both again sometime..mwah

1st Anniversary..

i cried for two days.. our 1st anniversary was 6 days ago...but still i'm acting like this...well maybe because, there will be no more 1st anniversary..he told me that we will celebrate more anniversary together...i know we will...it just made me feel sad knowing that we haven't seen each other since May 7...we do talk..i called once in a while..we text if i'm not busy...

i'm still the selfish one here, right? i told him that i expect that we will not be able to see each other on our 1st anniversary...but i never thought it can came true...

we can do anything but to stare outside and see how the wind blows so hard, how powerful "Caloy" is......