Love...Love...Love....

grab from Camille's Multiply Account.....

*******

Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
So what?
So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you.
I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.
Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.

What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
It's not that simple.

******

..I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love.
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me.
That's what I hope to give to you forever.
I love you. I'll be seeing you.



**nakakarelate talaga ako, feeling the same thing, per0 just as what people and i think and believe, life has to move one...Look forward and spend life to its fullest!!!!

memoirs of my past....

i read my past journal (high school ata ako that time...), i was surpised to know that i was destined to actually studied at MSC Institute of Technology (dati MSC Computer Training Center yun name...) nabasa ko kasi na i saw someone, a high school student by that time( just like me,ayon sa aking journal more or less 6 years ago..), nakasulat dun na he saw me not wearing our uniform (i was studying that time at San Pablo City National High School Annex V, wahehe, complete name ng school....)... dati kasi ayoko na dumaan sa school na yon, kasi nga private, ( hindi naman ako anti, per0 siguro dahil bata pa ako that time, my Inferiority complex ako when it comes sa mga nag-aaral sa private...), per0 n0w, i thought siguro its just nagkataon lang na nakita ko ung tao un...i dont even remember the face.... nung nabasa ko nga, i smiled, kasi ndi ko matandaan eh..

un lang ung maganda kapag may journal eh, i can go back to my childhood...sa mga maling grammar, sa maling spelling, even yung mga nakakatawa, nakakakilig, nakakainis na memories....

minsan naisip k0 na maging bata..less complicated ang buhay...sarap kasi balikan ung mga gawaing pambata...

per0 people grew old...people mature...and we have to say goodbye to our childhood....

we have to.....

How Sinful I Am? - Tickle

Abbie, you're less sinful than the average person. Still, everyone has their weaknesses,
and the sin you're most guilty of is

Pride

In this context, Pride is defined by an exaggeration of your worth and power in an attempt to feel superior to others. Pride can lead you down the wrong path when you feel like you have to be the best at everything. This kind of compulsion to achieve can get in the way of your ability to connect respectfully and equally with others.

7 Deadly Sin

1. Pride is defined by an exaggeration of your worth and power in an attempt to feel superior to others. Pride can lead you down the wrong path when you feel like you have to be the best at everything. This kind of compulsion to achieve can get in the way of your ability to connect respectfully and equally with others.
2. Wrath is the inability to control your temper and the destructive expression of your anger toward others. At its worst, a tendency toward excessive Wrath can lead you to get angry quickly and easily, causing difficulty in refraining verbal attacking or physical abusing the object of your rage
3. Greed is the drive to accumulate wealth and to live a life of excess. It causes you to prioritize worldly possessions above all else and allow the pursuit of money to overshadow your personal relationships.
4. Sloth is the resounding lack of motivation that leads to procrastination, irresponsibility, and disengagement from life. It manifests as a lack of goals or direction in life, and the inability to pursue the things you want, as well as things that can enhance the greater good of the world.
5. Gluttony is the inability to control how much food and drink you indulge in on a regular basis. It is commonly associated with eating until you're stuffed, uncomfortable, nauseated, or unhealthily unfit or obese.
6. Envy is the obsession with the good fortune of others in comparison to your own life. It is commonly experienced as a feeling of anguish when others have a higher social status, greater wealth, more power or success, or superior talent or physical beauty — and this emotion starts to dominate your existence.
7. Lust is the unrestrained, insatiable expression of sexual desire, fantasy, and conquest. In the extreme, it can cause you to think about or pursue sex so much that your work life, you relationships, and your self-actualization suffer.

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our of n0where....


sa kabila ng lahat, madaming bagay ang dapat na ipagpasalamat...



test lang ito ng faith ko...kung hanggang gaano katatag ang paniniwala ko...



nakalimutan ko noon na lahat ng nangyayari sa akin ay may rason..

tulad ng pagsikat ni haring araw sa umaga..

at paglubog nito kapag si buwan na...

tulad ng pagkakaroon ng bahag-hari...

pagkatapos ng ulan...



nangyayari ang bagay dahil may dahilan.....

kung nararapat, para sa iy0..

kung hind ipagpasalamat na naging bahagi ito ng buhay mo...



natutunan k0 nang pahalagahan ang kung an0 ang gust0 ng MAYKAPAL.......

believe in the power of PRAYERS....

because life is tough but we have hundreds of reason to live it
with much appreciation and do things to be the best of what GOD want us to BE...

wish list

Want to continue my guitar lesson

Want to see myself on t.v.

Want to join PBB (I’m certified PBB addict!!)

Want to receive a phone call from my best friend

Want to see Piolo and Bianca (I idolized them)

Want to be a great influence to others

Want to be known as a person who brighten your days

Want to be recognize, respected and valued

Want to be hug by my father (he died when I was 2)

Want to be LOVE

Want to know my purpose in life [ndi ko pa marealize ang purpose ko]

Want to be a GOOD CHRISTIAN

Just want to share this list i had i mind last night (July 10, 2007)... as you can see, am just a human being, not so contented, but am thankful that God have His way for me to see things on what He has planned...

From Bianca G.'s Blog

i never had a chance to watch Inside the Actor's Studio, yet i found it interesting because of Bianca Gonzales.. She's my #1 Role Model for the Youth...She's a perfect example that she is just an ordinary Youth with an extraordinary way of living (well, i wish i can be like her!!! coz i really idolized this gurl!!! ) Go ate Biancs...

1. what is your favorite word?
Forgiveness + Love

2. what is your least favorite word?
War

3. what turns you on?
Sense of Humor..

4. what turns you off?
ARROGANCE! :s (same with Bianca's Answer)

5. what sound or noise do you love?
Water I Guess!!

6. what sound or noise do you hate?
Siren or Motorcycle Horn

7. what is your favorite curse word?
Wala ako maisip at this moment

8. what profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
News Anchor

9. what profession would you not like to do?
paparazzi

10. if HEAVEN exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
"You deserve a second chance, change to i what i want for you!!"

Proud to be Pinoy!!!!

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i find this comment very dramatic..but i like it!!!

Nice Article

Art of letting go

It’s over. He’s gone. Why do we have to part while love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose each other in the end? There are questions left unanswered. Words left unsaid. Letters left unread. Poems left undone. Songs left unsung. Love left unexpressed and promise left unfulfilled.

In a relationship, the hardest thing to do is to say goodbye and to let go. It is hard as breaking a crystal because you’ll never know when you will be able to pick up all the pieces and fit them together again. More often than not, they who go feel not the pain of parting. It is them who stay behind who suffer, because they are left with the haunting memories of a love meant to me, a love that was.

At the beginning and at the end of the relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that’s the way love is. That’s the bitter pill. The risk we have to take when we fall. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without knowing why. And we must forget not because we want to but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrow comes not as a single spy but as a battalion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song that you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath that you takes always remind you of him. Its like a stab of knife, a torture in the night.

Funny how the whole world becomes over populated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are 4 billion of people on earth and yet it seems you fell lonely and empty without each other.

I don’t know if it’s worth calling an art but letting go entails a special skills to be able to sparkle again within a considerable space and time. Time heals the wound but it takes a little more will power, a little more ingenuity on our part. Not all wishes come true. Not all love stories end with fairly tale ending and they live happily ever after. Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to cry temporarily to let go of the pains. Every beginning has its end like dawn has its dust. Its something we cant control, something we have to live with.

It’s over. He’s gone. But life has to go one. Goodbye doesn’t always mean farewell. There will always come a place and time where question will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled.

Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.

From: John Carlo Alcantara
My classmate back in College!!!

Trust

h0w funny i can advise my friends about their problems..even to brighten up their days and make them smile..

the thing is i can't to it for myself...


there's this guy, i know for sure will not dare hurt me...


he's nice, fun to be with, no dull moment..


a guy who deserve my trust



and my heart (i guess?!?)


but why does it seems that its so hard for me to love him?


the simplest thing i can do is to repay the love he wanted to gave me..


but then i can't...


i have risk everything i have before...


and now am on the process of regaining myself


but i just cant trust again..



i cant..



am too afraid..


they say i have to try..


but h0w..?



the only thing i want n0w is to let each passing day


worthwhile...


be the best person i can be..


be a friend who can brighten up your days..



and to be strong enough to face each and every day trials..




am not a risk taker that's why i can't love him the way he do...

One Way

muntik muntikan na akong um-OO..kulet kasi ni mel eh.....


last night i had a chance to meet mak (jacq's ex-boyfriend) with mel, nico and gab (s0brang pursigido talaga sya, h0w can i possible say no, he's nice at lam ko talaga na for real at ndi sya manloloko...the thing is ndi ko naman sya pede sagutin nang walang nararamdaman db? it would be unfair...ndi lang sa part nya kundi sa sarili ko rin...am not ready sa kahit anong relationship, not because ndi pa ako nakakaget-over, my reason is, s0brang ang hirap sa akin na magtiwala, sabi nga ni mel, iba si gab, andun na ako per0, sa ngayon, what i can offer is friendship...ndi ko nga masag0t ung tan0ng ni gab kung may hihintayin pa sya eh..ay0k0 kasi na masaktan sya... and he even told me na kahit sya na lang ang nagmamahal, [whaaaaaaaaaaat? tama ba naman yun?] )


ay0k0 naman ng ganun...gust0 k0 kapag nagkaroon ulet ako ng boyfriend, ung kaya kung ibigay ng buo ung tiwala at love ko...sa ngayon kasi, s0brang natatakot ako....


i'm still in the process of re-gaining myself and my trust to men... i can't force myself to commit and in the end masaktan ko lang..knowing that he loves me and i know that he really cares...


yeah, not all men are the same...at the end of the day, being single is not bad at all...i have learned to stand on my own...madami na akong na-discover sa sarili ko..i grew as a person... naging matured sa mga bagay bagay.... naging strong....dati s0brang takot akong mag-isa, sinasabi ko noon na i can't live without him, but God has provided everything i need to survive...that God is my strength...



sa ngayon, ndi ko kaya ng relationship na seryoso...... at ndi ko rin kaya ng ONE WAY...



sa tamang panahon



sa tamang tao



sa tamang pagkakataon..

Dreams

what a dream......? tama bang makapanaginipan ko na naman sya....?
ndi k0 na nga sya iniisip eh!!!

hayz, bakit na naman kaya?

and seems like s0brang nice nya sa dream na un....

i thought

4 months and i thought i have finally let my feelings g0ne...but then why does it seems that i still get affected with this things...when all i want to to simply forget...i just wanted to be happy.. i have mourned too much and too long...when i just thought am really okay, why this things have to happen to me.. i have let them be happy...i let them do what they want even if its hurts..


why do i have to feel empty again when i have more than 1 person who can make me feel complete....that person made me complete but then where i am n0w? am s0 lost, shattered......i hate this feeling coz i know i deserve my peace....



my story with that person has ended, but why does it seems that i still have this burden..? am tired of making myself happy and making other people happy even if am the one who will be hurt and be left...


am so tired!!!!


still am hearing the same voice... hearing the same words..words that just came out of that person mouth just to delude me and make me believe of a lie.....


why people have to lie? when all i want is the truth and a friend?



::ibang level na ang napasok kong relationship with you::
::mahihirapan rin ako without you, s0brang attached na ako sa yo::





why lie? when i need is truth?




why?

h0w can i?

nagsasawa na akong masaktan..s0brang masakit na...
ang hirap magtiwala sa mga lalaki..
nakakatak0t ng magmahal ulet..
the pain still strikes..
and yet
the one who can ease the pain
is actually the 0ne wh0 caused it!!!
terrible...!!
h0w can i be so numb?
h0w can i be s0 weak...?

video for the first time

tagal na nito eh...april pa..n0w k0 palang na-upload!! wahehehe *_*

open letters

blogging..blogging.. and blogging..

i just love blogging...

am here at ilaya.com, working while eating in front of my pc...

wahehehe, can't go home for lunch..

wahehehe

bianca mentioned in her blog that she recommend

writing an open letter coz that person might read it...


so i made this one:

kulot,

i, just want you to kn0w that i will always be a friend...and no matter what happen, n0 one can change the fact that you're my best GUY friend....all i want is to restore the w0nderful friendship we had....i know that it would take time and courage from both of us...s0brang nakapanghinayang naman kung dahil lang sa nangyari, our friendship will come to an end... am happy that you're happy, at ndi yun kaplastican...lam mo naman na kahit n00n pa, lagi lang ak0 nakasuporta sa mga decisions mo at ndi magbabago yun... i believe, we both matured enough para po maging magkaibigan ulet tayo..i h0nestly missing a friend i have in you..tulad po ng lagi ko sinasabi n00n, n0 one can replace you, you as my friend....mer0n nga ko dapat na i-email sa yo, but having a second thought of sending it to you, kasi feeling k0 ayaw mo naman ako maging kaibigan... i know, konti lang yung percentage na mabasa mo to, but then, if you'll be able to read this, the only message of it is that i really wanted to RESTORE the friendship... and that I MISS my LOLO KULOT.....my friend whom i can be myself, can cry with and laugh with...


abbhy:)

new envir0nment

nakakapag0d na..last week i'm so disturbed and b0thered by s0me thoughts i myself cant explain...am s0 tired and napupuno na ak0 sa mga nasa utak k0, but then, i still have to w0rk (xempre, need to w0rk, alangan naman maging tambay ak0 at pampasakit sa ul0 ng nanay k0...)its just that am tired of this feeling...pati na rin sigur0 ng mga tao sa paligid k0..i mean i've been w0rking f0r almost two years, same place, same pe0ple.. minsan nakakasawa na, per0 what else can i do...? sigur0 nga ndi na ak0 masaya sa trabah0 k0...kala kasi nila madali lang, yes madali lang talaga, per0 there are times na s0brang nakakapag0d, mentally & physically...ay0k0 magreklamo kn0wing marami naman naitul0ng ang trabaho sa akin...pati na rin sa kapatid k0....naghahanap lang sigur0 ak0 ng new envir0nment...new people, new experience....or maybe am getting b0red....wala na ung fulfillment k0...wala na urge to w0rk here, i dont kn0w why, per0 sa hirap maghanap ng w0rk tapos pr0blema pa ang MATA ko...san ka pa? kaya pr0blema k0 kung pan0 makakahanap ng w0rk...






Lord, am s0rry, am sobra na ata ak0ng nagiging pasaway at lagi ak0 nagrereklamo..ndi naman po...i dont have the right..kaya p0 binibigay k0 na lang p0 sa iny0 lahat... s0rry p0..

::umiyak na naman ako kagabi...dahil na naman sa kanya...kaiinis na nga ako eh....kasi nga sya walang pakialam sa akin, he d0en't even want us to be friends, tap0s sya s0brang nag-aalala ako kasi baka may pr0blem sya..i care t00 much for him but from him i am n0thing..::

gusto ko bawasan ang pag-aalala ko sa kanya..

sAmE oLd QuesTion...

anla naman, tinatanong na naman nila ako pano kung bumalik sya sa akin..

ndi ba nila ak0 maintindihan, ndi ba nila magets ung sag0t k0h..

alam naman naming lahat na imposible na ung mangyari..

ndi ayaw na nga nya akong maging kaibigan eh..what m0re of coming back db?

paulet ulet na lang kasi ung mga tan0ng, at ganun pa rin nman ang sag0t an0 ba?

b0theRed!

s0brang b0thered pa rin kaya ako, ndi k0 naman maintindihan bakit?
pang 4 days na ak0ng ganit0...i even wanted t0 cry na lang to release
something na I can’t explain…I kn0w am acting s0 strange,

even a friend of mine feels that s0mething is b0thering me…


am doing my very best to divert my attention to other things…
sa ibang ta0..even sa television

even writing … even singing

and lot more…


then this song always enters in my mind:
flames to dust
lovers to friends
why do all g00d things come to an end?
flames to dust
lovers to friends
why do all g00d things come to an end?
Come to an end…come to an end
why do all g00d things come to an end?
Come to an end…come to an end


I don’t know why am still like this, want peace of mind..
please give it back to me.. :(
WANTED: RESCUE 911
Bestfriend, please help me!!!



Wala na ako masabihan nito…
I’ve lost the one na nakakaintindi sa akin sa mga ganitong
pagkakataon sa buhay ko….


Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…..


Bothered…

dreams.signs.

i don't know why my past still hunts me...two days in a r0w that i dreamed of my past..last friday, i dream of him with his girlfriend..& just this morning, i dreamed of his dad and his family...sometimes his m0m even his relatives...i don't kn0w why this dream came int0...i never think of them that much para mapanaginipan sila..yes, i do miss them..per0 ginagawa k0 na nga ang lahat para ndi ako maging s0brang attach sa family nya...kasi kahit naman ndi ako ganun kaclose sa kanila eh s0brang laki ng love k0 for them..kinoc0nsider ko sila as my extended family..

an daming bagay ang nangyayari...in just one blink, may magpapaalala sa akin...its either my magtetext or basta....natutuwa ako kasi naaalala nila ako...as in s0brang natutuwa per0, parang nasa anin0 pa rin nya ako kapag ganun...kahit s0brang masaya ako sa pinapakita nila...

nagpapasalamat na lang ako kasi s0brang naging parte ako ng buhay nila..at ung part na naalala nila ako....sana i can repay them sa pagiging nice...through prayers na lang siguro...s0brang binavalue k0 kasi sila..s0brang laki ng respet0 k0 sa kanila...masarap maging parte ng pamilyang yun..

kasi siguro lam k0 ung mga bagay na ndi lam ng iba....

wr0ng m0ve

palagi na lang bang ganito? lagi na lang mali ung nasasabi ko....


dapat kasi nag-iisip muna ako...bago umo-OO at huminde....kainis talaga...


dapat kasi magisip muna ako...bag0 magsalita...dami kasi maaapektuhan
kapag nagpunta pa ako dun....ano naman ang gagawin ko ?
ayk0 lang na magkaroon ng conflict, tapos yan na, meron na nga...



gusto ko rin sana magvolunteer dun, para naman may mgawa ako sa libreng oras ko..



gab, start na lang natin ung tutorial ko ha?


lam ko mali na naman nagawa kong move.....waaaaa




wasted na naman ako...




always.....

d0 i mAkE y0u pr0ud?

It hurts me m0st when I kn0w that some0ne
is n0t proud to be with me…
I hate this feeling of thinking of what he feels
When I am his girl…
Is he pr0ud of me when I am his girl?
I always end up asking myself…
Bkit ndi sya proud na ako ang girlfriend nya?
Siguro in a way proud sya…
Per0 bakit n00n sa mGa fRiEnds nyA
Ndi ko naramdaman na pr0ud sya..
naPapaRan0id na nAmAn ak0…
daMn mE, I – who have L0w self-estEem
& I really haTe it…

n0w I asked….


DO I MAKE YOU PROUD?


♪♫This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud♪♫

lovers can be friends

somehow the cliché " Friends ca be Lovers, but Lover cannot be Friends",
can be "Friends ca be Lovers, but Lover can be Friends",
in my own opinion i guess...
for i believe that perhaps both parties have reasons
why they choose not to be friends or to be friends....


that thing is the one g0t hurts and the other one is the one who cause the hurt...
maybe the one who left feel awkward being friends with the one being left..
or the one being left still have his/her reasons not being friends with him/her..
its a reality in a ended relationship...


whats the real thing about this cliché?

and then ..........


i keep asking myself, when i know that i am the one who left alone..
i asked myself, am i ready to face me and offer my friendship....
since we started as good friends....actually the best of friends... inseparable...
but nothing has change, i still want to restore the friendship...
but since our communication has ended
h0w can we possibly be friends again...
question like is he willing to restore our friendship?
does our friendship means a lot to him?
always make me think?..
and we havent see each other and talk as friends.....

hmmm still i have questions...and it always fills my head every time i see my bestfriends Dhren.....
but it d0ent mean that i still love him the way i love him before...
things change....i've been hurt and cause a lot of pain to others
i have move on and i have let go...
n0w what i want is to prove that


'FRIENDS CAN BE LOVER AND LOVERS CAN BE FRIENDS TOO...

my self-esteem

nakakainis talaga ako...down na nman ang self-esteem ko..


dahil ba ndi ako maganda?dahil ba ndi ako matalino?dahil ndi ba ako seksi?



isang beses ko lang naramdaman na proud ung tao na un eh...kahit sa mga friends nya, p*tcha ndi ko lam ung naging proud ba sya...


d*mn tama bang maalala ko na naman un.....nakakainis kasi si ************,


buti pa sya sinasabi lagi na maganda ako, na matalino ako, na swerte ang magiging boyfriend ko, tsk tsk tsk...buti pa sila - naa-appreciate ung meron ako.... kainis naman....buti pa si gel pinapatawa ako....tnx po gel....

d*mn

wala lang...naalala ko lang, feeling ko hindi naging proud sa akin ang isang tao.....lalo na sa harap ng ibang tao......:( sad but true.....



::emo mode::

missing a friend......again

while watching PPB Season 2 episode last night, i burst into tears....my mom asked me why am i crying...sadly i remember (nope, i begun to miss) a friend....someone whom i consider as one of my blessings...i fell asleep crying -- crying like a baby...

i cried because when Bruce Quebral was about to leave the house to go to Slovenia for the Big Swap, Wendy, his close gurl HM, crying her heart out loud... telling him that "kapag magkaaway na at nagkakagulo na lahat, sila lang ang bati...."


then i thought of my Best Guy Friend.....


s0brang sakit kasi na mawawala ung taong kakampi mo sa lahat ng bagay.....that's why i burst into tears and cried....s0brang kong naalala ung pinagsamahan namin, kasi naman s0brang dati inseparable kami...all most every day kami magkasama at nagkikita....we talked anything under the sun...lahat ng frustrations, dreams, lahat talaga, as in lahat..even our biggest secrets...sobrang nakakamiss na may nasasabihan ka ng mga pr0blema, ng mga nangyari sa inyo the whole day, kwentuhan to the max, kulitan.....


Lolo Kulot namimiss na kita talaga...miss ko na ung Best Guy friend Ko... s0brang namimiss ko na h0w we bond t0gether...ung mga kwentuhan....lam ko po na masaya ka na, kahit wala na ako sa life mo..lam mo nman po na no one can replace my BEST GUY LOLO KULOT FRIEND DB? nag-iisa ka na po eh..kaw talaga ung BEST GUY FRIEND KO...



i'm not missing him as my boyfriend...i'm missing him as my bestfriend.....iba kasi Sya as friend..iba talaga........



::sadly, hindi pa ito ang tamang panahon na magkasama ulet sya bilang kaibigan...::
::only time can tell kung ano ang mangyayari, baka too late na...wala na ako::

♫♪someday...♫♪

♫♪i know you dont really see my worth.....


someday someones gonna love me
the way, i wanted you to need me....
sone day someones gonna take your place...
ooohh , someday, i forget about you...
you'll see i wont even miss you...
someday.........someday♫♪


that someday has arrived....i mean i have let my past be blown and now i'm beginning to feel something for someone i truly can't have....his heart MAYBE belong to someone else...MAYBE his past is still there.....i know that i can never have him, i'm not even sure if he loves me or he just like me as his friend....no one would know who he is...even him whom i believe appreciate my worth..someone i can call a FRIEND....who he is? i will keep that as a BIG SECRET.......
what's important is that I'M HAPPY KNOWING HIM....and HE MAKES ME FEEL IMPORTANT....

::secrets::

bLissful Time

the past months that passed are simply unpredictable....i never thought that it will happen to me....but then God has it better way of healing my heart and continue showering me with lots of reason to enj0y my life and keep on looking forward....pe0ple come and go...just like what happened to my ex-boyfriend...he came into my life and after our blissful time together, he went away...he maybe left me with my heart broken & shattered, he left me with a lesson to learned...i learned to appreciate myself, my family and other people as well.....


i wanted him to know that i still value our friendship and he is my best guy friend....and that i still consider him as one of the most important person in my life and one of the most wonderful people God had given me....he might forget me as his friend, but still he deserve a thank you from me...he knows the reason for that thank you...


Thank you for letting me in into your life and somehow be a part of your life.....Thank you...and i hope you now knew that i'm happy...am happy letting you go and i have moved on...i forget about my feelings for..and still you're my best GUY friend....no 0ne can change that......db Lolo...? :)

left...move on..forget

why is it so easy for him to take her effort of saving what they have for granted?
why is it so easy for him to just leave?
why men choose to hurt women?
why does this things has to happen?

wondering how this things happen in just one blink of the eye.....i keep asking myself, bakit ba pagpinagkatiwalaan mo ang isang tao, he ended up hurting you....leave you hanging...leaving you with nothing and empty handed...why simple things are the one who seems hard to achieve.....? why people turn to be bad even if they are not...?

bakit ang mga lalake, nang-iiwan lang...if they get what they want at kapag nagsawa na sila...bakit ndi sila makontento of what they have?

kagabi, isang kaibigan ang nag-open up sa kin...she's so hurt...full of pain...nakikita ko sa kanya ung ginawa ko for someone....ung lumaban para maisave ang relationship...per0 magkaiba kami in a way that, the person she fights for, appreciate her and still holding on... but then when one of them gives up, its the end...i just hope they find in their hearts that they deserve each other a chance...forget what happen in the past...lam kung mahirap, as in..pe0 if mahal talaga nila ang isat-isa...kaya nila eh....ang mahirap lang kasi kapag ung trust na ung nawala eh...per0 if they still love and trust each other, they deserve a chance.....at sana marealize nila un...




sadly, mine had ended.....the one i fought for given up...but then, i'm not bitter anymore....i actually learned to live my life without him....kung ndi nya nakita ang WORTH ko, eh ano?marami pang mas deserving jan...marami pang ta0ng nagmamahal sa kin who will never leave me and drop me like a mush potato....i even learned to fight for myself...pursue my happiness, my life.....i can tell them that i'm happy being alone and without a guy in my life...i'm happy exploring things....ndi nman kasi ako nag-iisa eh..i have a lot of people who loves me more....more than i thought they can love me...siguro sila ung mga FEW people who appreciate me and consider me as one of their treasures....at the end of the day, i never lost any, i gain...i gained friends...i regain myself...the old me but a much stronger me....



dati kala ko ndi ko kaya, pero look at me n0w....happy....and enj0ying life.....even if sucks, i have hundreds of reason to love it and enjoy it...





my bestfriend erika will be happy if she reads this...she knows me well.....:)



::loving the OLD ME with plus::

choice to be happy

i'm pursuing my happiness that's why i am contented being single...my choice to be happy and leave everything in God's Hand....leave my past behind and never look back sa mga bagay na can make me feel sad.....if i will think of my failed relationship, i will be sad, and i dont want that to happen..simply because, its not worth it anymore....now that i know my real worth...questions like what had happen, what have i done wrong, should not be a hindrance for me to be happy....though for sometime, i still asked that questions....i never thought that i can survive this...for i have given up.....but then, when i look at myself....i am not worthy of what had happen......if he doesnt recognize my worth it, fine....because i know, there are people who are more than willing to love me, take care of me and never hurt me..... a friend told me that i'm someone who wanted to rush things...that's kinda true....when that unexpected day happen, all i want is to move one and forget...i dont want to bear the pain for long...because i know if, it takes so long, i will be hurt...i will cry till i'm tired of it....there are times when i told that person to just kill me instead of what he had done...thanks to him, i am a better person....a much stronger and tougher one...someone who wont easily give up...someone who knows how to play her game....







i just hope one day, he still consider me as one of the most important person in his life (well, as what he said) and still consider me as his friend....our relationship as couple has ended...now that i have learned to move on and live my life without him for quite sometime and now i know that his happy just like me...i hope our friendship never ends this way......i dont want to lose someone who became my brother and my companion for the past 3 years...if our friendship means nothing to him...perhaps, as my friend tol me, i should forget, .......the way HE DID....

an open letter...again

no one,
i was thinking of things and life...how my perception in life change? how my life actually change....i admire those men who are honest but then the probabilty of this are too small.....i keep asking myself, men usually forget things easily..men took everything they wanted and leave us empty handed..leave us with nothing....its hard to generalize men, but that what seems to be the truth..(for my own opinion, i guess!?)

i know this person for quite sometimes....but after what had happen, he doesnt seem to know me...why is it so easy for someone to forget? questions still haunt me...and i'm getting tired of this...even our friends notice that he has change..(in a way of our friendship i guess...) perhaps, he's thinking that i am still hurt..but i'm not...it seems that i haven't influence him... end of this....



my sleepless night are yet over.....my insomia is back...i'm doing everything to sleep early but then no effect....i listen to mellow music...read books......etc...i don't know what else to do...i want to adjust my body clock but what else can i do.......i'm tired....i'm sleepy at noon time.....:(

LOVE = LIFE

when i love...i just dont offer my love....








i offer my life......






::sadly dA oNe i LOVED (take note of the D) offer just love......::

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what you is is what you get!!!

close encounter

i saw mr. reynaldo martinez just this afternoon....as the usual thing he does if he saw me, he smiles...it gives me happiness that he still knew me after the long time na hindi ako nakapunta sa kanila to pay them a visit.... still i have things i really wanted to do with them... for me, martinez family is my 2nd family, but i know i can't have them as my family... i miss tito bong, tita cora, si macky, si rey(though ndi nman madaldal, basta namimiss ko na sila), at lalong lalo na si ella....i miss how she make lambing and make kwento about something and anything......hayz, i miss her so much....... :(


i wish i can be with them...... even just before my plans of going somewhere....:(

forgiving

just last night i received a message from someone i dont expect to text me....the one, i wanted to be with, she might be someone i am afraid of, but then she's someone i wanted to bond with... she's nice... and just this afternoon, she texted me again and ask few questions....







i have forgiven you son, tita....i just hope makasama ko ulet kayo [kahit imposible na po....:) ] , miss ko na po ang family ny0...lalo na po ang only girl ny0, ella.....i miss her so much......

how could you?

how could an angel break my heart?
how could you say you love me?
how could lie to me?


:how could you?coz i dont deserve this....:

MEN are MEN

i just realize sobrang hirap magtiwala sa mga lalake...men doesn't deserve my trust...when you give trust to them, kung ano ano ginagawa behind our back.. its hard to trust them...

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someone ask me kung galit daw ako dun sa gurl who replace me...i told her, i'm not....siguro natatanong ko lang sa sarili ko na, alam na naman nya na may girlfriend yun, would you be sweet to him that may eventualy make him fall for you....and to the guy, if you really love your girlfriend, kahit anong sweet pa ng ibang girls sa yo, wala kang pakialam sa kanila db? saka ano pa ang silbi if i get mad, wala naman db?





what happen to me, change my perception about men...dati sabi ko, ndi ko dapat lahatin ang mga lalake, per0 things that happen only prove me that men are the same....





men can not be trusted and they dont deserve trust......

losing the friendship

seems like he forget who i am..
seems like i am no one...
seems like he never knew me...
seems like i'm just a name without a face....
seems like our friendship had been thrown to trash..
& seems like i've lost a friend
& with just a blink of an eye our friendship fades....


.....................................................and that makes me sad.....

give me reason

i realize men can not be contented with what they already have…
they searched for something else…


give me reason to hate you....
give me reason to forget you...
give me what i deserve....


when you lied......
i lied when i said i love you....


::please change::

how does it feel?

how does it feel to be the reason of a break-up?
how does it feel to be left alone?
how does it feel when you are the one who left?
how does it feel to be someone who dominate the game of love?

:: i'm tired of being nice!!!::

who are you?

Who are you to hurt me?
Who are you to swindle me?
Who are you to judge me?
Who are you to rupture my dreams?
Who are you to make me fall?
Who are you to tell me what to do?
Who are you to delude me?
Who are you to leave me with this wretchedness?

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you said sorry, i forgave you....

you ask for chance, i gave it to you...

i realize...

those were just a utter words

only to deceive me...only to hurt me...

i once chase you & run after you,

but then you run after her.....

i die a thousand times

only for you to say Goodbye...

i dont want to live my life

only to live with this undying memories....

memories filled with loneliness..

i am alone in this dark room....

sat in one corner, cry until i'm tired.....

i became so weak..so fragile

when with just a gentle blow of wind

i will shatter into pieces......

i was broken...i was down...

but hey, hear me now,

i'm stronger than you think i am...

i will play my game...

i will be a tougher contender.....

i will not play that i can hurt you...

but i will not play it safe, too...

watch out for what i become....

for what you have made me....

how does it feel to be the reason of my insanity

of my misery, of my distress..

of my life so long filled with love and happiness

with contentment and assurance....

but now, full of grievance...

you lied...

you never cared....

you i am to blame you...?

who i am to ask?

i have enough reason to be love...

i know, when i am myself,

people starts to love me

hate me

and

envy me....

*i cant find a word that will best describe the hurt*

*i deserve LOVE, honesty, fidelity and RESPECT*

God has reasons

wondering how God works?


its been while since i search for someone who will end my misery...


as of today 12:14 am, March 13, 2007 at San Pablo City...


my misery has ended...



i've seen the one i long been waited to see...


my curiousity ends...


my misery ends.....


my agony ends…


my crying days are over…


my life begins....


my hAppy Life is yet to begin...


life is a tough journey....


the sorrow, the pain may still hunts me


but I will face them…..



learning to live this life full of lie

full of insults..

full of bitches …..


that makes me a tougher one…..


now I know how to play the game…


I’m tried of being such a loser….


i choose to be hAppy...


i choose to understand those people who hurt me...



I choose to forgive…




I choose to forget…




I choose the love them rather than to hate them…




I choose n0t to revenge…



i am not worthless, I am not a selfish



yes I am a sinner, I am bad….


That’s why…….



No one would love me when take my revenge…

I AM WORTHY
I DESERVE HONESTY, FIDELITY
AND RESPECT……

MY COLORS

may TRUE may HINDI..per0 90% accurate....hehehe

Abbie, the first color you chose reveals that you're feeling Calm today.

For centuries, colors have been known for their energizing, calming and empowering qualities. In schools of psychology, a leading color theory suggests that your color preferences can also indicate what's on your subconscious mind. From your choices, here's what we found out about you. Like other people who chose Blue first, you tend to take things in stride. Instead of getting worked up over situations, you probably solve problems without feeling too much emotional stress. [ yes, i tend to take things in stride but at the end of the day, i know i have to fave them, i worked over things and solve them, un nga lang it takes time] The fact that you chose Blue first also indicates that others probably see you as a mild-mannered person who has a balanced approach to life.How rare is this color choice? 33% test takers also chose Blue first, but less than 0.10% of test-takers share your exact 8-color sequence.

This insightful color personality test, developed by color psychologist Max Luscher, reveals detailed information about your unconscious mind based on the order of your color selections. Luscher's research revealed that the order in which you selected a series of colors is significant. In fact, not only was he able to determine that the order was relevant, but he revealed that particular aspects of your life could be represented by specific color choices. This goes beyond what colors you like the most. Luscher made a connection between color preferences and how they related to your subconscious mind. There is a meaning behind your single color choices, as well as your color pairs. This report will provide detailed info on both. We'll begin with the first color you chose.Your Leading ColorThe color you choose first symbolizes the methods you use to achieve your hopes, dreams and greatest goals. This is the color you're most drawn to, which indicates that you're turning toward the qualities this color evokes. It may be you want to incorporate more of what the color symbolizes into your life, or that it's a reflection of your current mental state. Blue. This reveals that overall, you're Calm. Like other people who choose Blue first, you likely tend to take things in stride, without getting too worked up over situations. Others probably see you as mild-mannered and centered in your approach to life. According to Luscher, Blue in the first position also reveals that you have a desire for either emotional tranquility or physiological rest. You may long to escape emotional conflict or a situation that has been demanding, or you may crave a restful period that doesn't require a lot of physical activity. Overall, you long for a calm environment that is free from stressors, even though you do have the capacity to handle stress with grace. You need for your relationships to be free of conflict, as it's essential for you to be able to trust those who are close to you and be trusted by them in return. You have a quiet spirit, a peaceful manner and impeccable integrity. 33% test takers also chose Blue first.

Your Color Test Report

This is the color of your personality. Of all test takers, only less than 0.10% have the same exact combination as you. According to Luscher, each of your selections reveals something particular to your personality. The following section will reveal what Luscher believes each color selection reveals about your true self.


The Luscher Method
Luscher believed that each color has a particular psychological meaning and physiological impact. Unlike words, he believed that colors have universal meaning. This means that no matter your age, race, gender, national identity, educational or socioeconomic level, or personality quirks, colors carry the same natural associations.Following is some more detailed information about each of the eight colors. Below are Luscher's findings on which positions are most common for that color. You can apply all of this to the information in order to enhance your understanding of your unique color spectrum.



Blue - The dark blue color in this test symbolizes the calm of an untroubled sea. It represents fulfillment, as well as truth, love and devotion. It relates to tender emotions and sensitivity. Studies have found that when people look at this color, their respiration and blood pressure are reduced. Dark blue corresponds with the basic biological need for tranquility and contentment. According to Tickle's research, Blue is most commonly chosen in positions one through four, especially in the first two positions. It is the most popular choice for the first position.
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Red - The red on this test, which contains enough yellow to give it an orange hue, is the expression of vital force. Red speeds up one's pulse, respiration, and blood pressure. It represents desire, appetites and cravings. It symbolizes the desire to achieve and a need to "do." Red is the present, and it represents all forms of power, from sexuality to innovative change. It is the blood of conquest and the flame igniting the human spirit. According to Tickle's studies, it is somewhat uncommon for Red to be chosen in the last three positions.
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Black - Black is the dark negation of color. It expresses the idea of nothingness, endings and extinction. Black is about surrender and relinquishing. It has great impact on the color with which it's paired, emphasizing the impact of that color. Choosing black in the early positions is an act of extremeness and rebellion, a sign of revolt. When black is chosen last, Luscher believed it is a sign of not wanting to relinquish anything, and instead be in control of your own fate. Tickle found that, more than any other color, Black is chosen equally for each of the eight positions, with a slight tendency to be chosen in the last four positions.
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Yellow - Yellow, the brightest color on the test, represents lightness and good cheer. Yellow is radiance, expansiveness, and a release from burdens. Symbolically, yellow is the warm sunlight. Yellow is more uncertain than red; while it indicates flurried diligence, this focus comes in fits and starts. Yellow is progressive, always going toward the new and the developing. Tickle's findings revealed that it is somewhat uncommon for Yellow to be chosen in the first or second position.
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Gray - The shade of gray used on this test is neither dark nor light, and thus it is free of any specific psychological tendency. Gray symbolizes neutrality, the halfway point between white and black. This is the color of noninvolvement. It also represents the desire to hide or conceal. Tickle found that Gray is most commonly chosen in positions five through eight, especially in the last two positions.
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Brown - This brown is a darkened yellow-red. Yellow dampens Red's vitality and thus makes it more peaceful. Brown's vitality is less active, and is instead more receptive than Red's. Brown is sensuous, relating to the physical body. It is also about the importance of roots, home and family. Tickle's research found that Brown is the most common color choice for the last position.
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Violet - As a combination of both blue and red, violet manages to be its own distinct color, though it does lose the clarity and purpose that both red and blue have on their own. Violet is the magical union of red's need to conquer and blue's need to surrender. It is intuition and sensitivity. Violet is also about wish fulfillment and fantasy, a state in which the world is a magical place. Violet, due to its fantastical nature, can sometimes lead to irresponsibility. Tickle found that Violet is the second most commonly chosen color for the first position, second only to blue.
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Green - The blue-green color on this test represents perseverance, constancy and firmness. Green symbolizes the most resistant to change, the most self-awareness, the most self-possession. Emotionally, green is a sign of pride. Symbolically, it corresponds with the towering and austere sequoia, deep-rooted, unchanging, and monumental. Green is the color of precise memory, accuracy and logic. Tickle found that it's somewhat uncommon for Green to be chosen first or last, and that Green tends to be chosen toward the middle of the selection process.


While the first color you select reveals your unique approach to life, your second color indicates what you're actually trying to achieve with that approach. In the next section Your First Pairing, you'll learn how your first and second colors combine to reveal information about your current life direction. In following sections in this report, you'll learn about the significance of Your Second, Third and Fourth Pairings as well.
Your First Pairing: What You Want and How You Get ItThe first two colors you selected make up your first pairing. According to Luscher, these are the colors that you're most drawn to. The order of your selections here are particularly significant. The first color you choose represents the method you rely on to achieve your goals. The second color represents what your actual goal is. As a pair, these first two colors signify your dreams and the methods you employ to make them a reality.

You chose Blue first and Red second. This means that you long for affection and harmony in your relationships. You desire an intimate partnership that's based on love, trust, and self-sacrifice. Out of all test-takers, 7.16% select these two colors in the first and second positions.

Your Second Pairing: How You're Coping Now The third and forth color you chose comprise your second pairing. Luscher believed that your second pairing represents your present set of circumstances and how you are responding to them.

Black/Yellow is your second pairing. In relation to what's going on in your life, your current situation involves some critical or dangerous elements that desperately need a solution. You reject advice from others, and you may make reckless or sudden decisions. Among others who take this test, 1.51% chose this color combination in the third and forth positions.
Your Third Pairing: What You Have in ReserveYour third pairing is based on the fifth and sixth colors you picked. Luscher believed these are the colors you're indifferent to; you neither prefer them nor reject them. The colors in this pairing represent the behaviors that you're repressing. It's also possible you may not be choosing them because you feel they'd be inappropriate. Once your situation changes, you could draw on these behaviors as you see fit.

Your third pairing is Gray/Brown. According to Luscher's theories, this indicates that you're holding back to avoid conflict. You're willing to become emotionally attached, and you're also able to achieve physical satisfaction from your sex life. 1.96% of test takers share this combination for the fifth and sixth positions.

Your Fourth Pairing: What You're RejectingThe final two colors you selected make up your highly significant fourth pairing. According to Luscher's theories, these are the colors you are rejecting, which means you're turning away from the qualities they represent. These colors represent a need that you're repressing due to your life situation. Luscher believed that the colors you like the least reveal the most about you.

Violet/Green is your fourth and final pairing. This means you're rejecting or suppressing the strength of mind you need to escape a bad situation. You currently feel humiliated by the lack of appreciation you're getting. You feel disheartened, alone, and completely misunderstood. You want to escape, but you feel like you aren't getting anywhere. Among other test-takers, 1.02% share this color combination in the seventh and eighth positions.

enj0ying life

i'm enj0ying my life right n0w... i've met new people... exploring things i dont usually do.. and it helps me a lot...to recover, to actually move on and live my life as it was before... maybe because i've learned and realize that life is too short.....i do not want to regret one day, that i havent done what i i know can make me happy..i dont wanna live my life with regrets...and also pe0ple who hurted me, helps me to know myself better...to know my strenghts and weaknesses....and i found my REAL, TRUE FRIENDS....

minsan kasi ung mga taong pinagkakatiwalaan mo or even ung mga taong tinuring mong kaibigan, sila pa ung nananakit sa yo..felt bad aper0 shempre you have to forgive...and forget...and blaming them wont help...db? and maybe i dont know them well and vice versa...

and at the end of the day, its your choice if you want to be sad or be happy... as they say, "Happiness is a choice.." am pursing my happiness, that why, even if one day, we cross path, i can smile at them...

h0pe they can be happy as much as i do..... :)

ung songs po dito maganda..... i'm still tyring to download everything every shempre wala pa po...hehehee

and this teleserye is Good...

be back

everyone ask me, is there any chance to be back to each other and be happy again? I told them, i dont think so.... i guess we wont...ndi nman ako nagsasalita ng tapos, kasi ndi nman natin lam ang mangyayari db.. per0 sa ngayon, nku, 99.9 percent sure ako na ndi po.. dahil una, i know him, 2nd, kasi i think ndi na nya ako mahal, 3rd, siguro dahil alam ko lang..:) and because i know he never thought of having me back.... ndi nya un maiisip kahit na kelan... he doesnt even wanted to see me after..he doesnt even care about me....hehehe ndi nman ako bitter...i 'm just telling the truth... napatawad ko na naman sila.... Tapos na ung mga araw na umaasa ako..tapos na ung time na umiiyak ako....Magpakasaya na lang sila...at ako ay ganun din...


Natatanong ko kasi, sobrang faithful naman ako, binibigay ko na ung trust na gusto nya... wala nga akong kahit konting doubt eh... siguro dahil dun kaya nya nagawa un....per0 kaya nga ako naglet go at kaya ako nakamove on kasi lam ko na dun sya masaya, ano ba pa ang magagawa ko....nakapatanga ko naman kung aasa pa ako... I'VE DONE MY PART... nagawa ko na ang lahat to save anything, but then AYAW na nya... para saan ba? WORTH PA BA?
- ano ba to? tama na... :)

may mga tao lang na ndi pala dapat asahan ng mga pangako.. may mga tao na nang-iiwan sa ere... per0 may mga tao rin naman kahit konti eh pde asahan.. sa palagay ko (IMO lang ha?) out of 10, 1 na lang ang taong ndi nang-iiwan.....ung ndi manloloko..... 1 na lang siguro ung taong sa pinakalowest point ng buhay mo eh ndi ka iiwan at andyan pa rin para sa 'yo... nakapaNEGA ko ba about guys? ndi nman, siguro, sa panahon ngayon, un ang mahirap makita... dahil kung baga, eh, once in a blue moon na lang un...

now, i'm fixing my heart and my life...masaya na ako ngayon...ewan ko ba? hehehe ndi pa nga lang ako ready for some kinda serious relationship per0 i'm open about possibilities....

WHAT IF'S and WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN

paanong magkakaroon pa ng pag-asa kung sumuko na? marami pa rin naman akong WHAT IF's and WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN.... pe0 kung patul0y ak0ng magtatanong, may mangyayari pa ba? may mababago ba? sa bawat araw na dumadaan, mas narereliaze ko na, may mga BAGAY na NDI na DAPAT malaman pa...ndi lang dahil masasaktan ka, kundi un ang makakabuti sa lahat...

everytime na tatanungin ako ng mga tao, kung bakit, kung ano ang nangyari....i make it a point na ndi maging masama ang nangyari... na ndi dapat magbago ang lahat... sa palagay ko naman, ginagawa ko na NGAYON ang mga bagay na DAPAT ay noon ko pa ginawa...

my promise to him that ndi magagalit ang family ko sa kanya, pinipilit ko nang ibalik ang pagkakakilala nila sa kanya...ndi ko man nagawa na ndi sila magalit sa kanya nung una, lam ko ngayon nagawa ko na mang bawiin un sa kanila... siguro naman tama na ang idefend sya sa mga tao...i've done my part..

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natanong ko sa sarili ko, bakit kung kelan mahal na mahal mo na ang isang tao, saka pa mawawala...? pe0 naisip ko na si God may ibang plano para sa akin.. parang preparation lang ito sa tamang tao para sa akin..naisip ko rin na siguro, bata pa ako to think of the possibility of finding someone, ung THE ONE... kasi before, i thought the person i am with is THE ONE..... pe0 un, sa kaaasa, NASAKTAN lang... time can only tell ung ano ang mangyayari, pe0 ndi na rin ako umaasa......WHY? because even before, umasa din ako na mahal din ako.. O0 minahal nga ako, pe0 only to hurt me and left me with my misery... end up crying per0 ngayon ok na talaga ako.....

Kaya lang napakaselfish ko nman to think na asa akin na lahat ng problema, only to realize na WALA pa ang pinagdaan ko sa mga taong MAS MALAKI at MAS MAHIRAP ang pinagdadaanan... Bless na siguro na may mga tao na HINDI AKO INIWAN... ung NDI AKO PINABAYAAN...

siguro kung may SIGNS, CLUES, COLDNESS akong naramdaman, sana naging madali ito para sa akin... ndi ko nga alam kung ndi ba nya pinaramdam sa akin oh, talagang tanga ako to realize at maramdamn un....

pe0 tapos na un eh, life has to go one.....marami pa ang mangyayari at darating... pe0ple come and go...they will leave us with lessons to be learned...wounds to heal...life to be enjoy.....be happy life is wonderful.... :)