A T-SHIRT REMINDED OF MY PAST

NAKATUWAAN KONG GAWIN....JANG NARA YUNG PINAKAGUSTO KO....
In the melancholic hour of my day, when I’m all alone, nobody to tell my stories of never ending survival of loneliness….. when my very best friends erhycka is not around to hear my n0t so good stories……. can’t help but recall my past doings, how I laughed at most simplest things.. and cry when I felt so depress about something… I used to have someone to tell my stories….
But n0w, I’ve learned to live my life without someone to tell my saddest or happiest stories….i realize that I can do things on my own without heading for someone to comfort me, I learned to comfort myself when I feel down….. I learned to love what I have and not to ask for more of what I just deserve to have… I’ve learned to live without someone to love….because I know I have HIM… someone I know will never leave me for other…. Who will always be there supporting my endeavors and loving me unconditionally…with no reservations and hesitations…. I found comfort in HIS LOVING ARM, ….. and felt love…
In His perfect time…I know that He will give me someone who will love me close enough to His love for us….
But for now, i'm taking a rest and protecting myself from any pain...i wont let anyone hurt me again..... i wont let them bring me down..... if eon ago, i let them hurt me or influence me that leads me from being unhappy.......
im taking my rest...with God's loving arm....... ^_*
What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
It's not that simple.
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Want to continue my guitar lesson
Want to see myself on t.v.
Want to join PBB (I’m certified PBB addict!!)
Want to receive a phone call from my best friend
Want to see Piolo and Bianca (I idolized them)
Want to be a great influence to others
Want to be known as a person who brighten your days
Want to be recognize, respected and valued
Want to be hug by my father (he died when I was 2)
Want to be LOVE
Want to know my purpose in life [ndi ko pa marealize ang purpose ko]
Want to be a GOOD CHRISTIAN
Art of letting go
It’s over. He’s gone. Why do we have to part while love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose each other in the end? There are questions left unanswered. Words left unsaid. Letters left unread. Poems left undone. Songs left unsung. Love left unexpressed and promise left unfulfilled.
In a relationship, the hardest thing to do is to say goodbye and to let go. It is hard as breaking a crystal because you’ll never know when you will be able to pick up all the pieces and fit them together again. More often than not, they who go feel not the pain of parting. It is them who stay behind who suffer, because they are left with the haunting memories of a love meant to me, a love that was.
At the beginning and at the end of the relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that’s the way love is. That’s the bitter pill. The risk we have to take when we fall. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without knowing why. And we must forget not because we want to but because we have to.
In letting go, sorrow comes not as a single spy but as a battalion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song that you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath that you takes always remind you of him. Its like a stab of knife, a torture in the night.
Funny how the whole world becomes over populated when only one person is missing. Just imagine, there are 4 billion of people on earth and yet it seems you fell lonely and empty without each other.
I don’t know if it’s worth calling an art but letting go entails a special skills to be able to sparkle again within a considerable space and time. Time heals the wound but it takes a little more will power, a little more ingenuity on our part. Not all wishes come true. Not all love stories end with fairly tale ending and they live happily ever after. Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to cry temporarily to let go of the pains. Every beginning has its end like dawn has its dust. Its something we cant control, something we have to live with.
It’s over. He’s gone. But life has to go one. Goodbye doesn’t always mean farewell. There will always come a place and time where question will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.
From: John Carlo Alcantara
My classmate back in College!!!